If Only

If only I was her
With hair of curls
Beauty undefined
Not afraid to read between the lines
Always moving forward
A smile on her face
Helping others
So they won’t decay
~*~
Instead I stand
Pen in hand
Hiding disgust
Moving on with lust
Monstrous creature
You have made me
I’m not perfect
It’s not hard to see
~*~
Her eyeliner is just right
She is always in site
Knows just what to say
When you are having an off day
If only I was thinner
Blonde to the root
Then would you notice me
Like she does you
~*~
Amazing clothes
Perfectly pressed
Never once losing
Fashion with it
She knows where she is going
How to get ahead
Nothing will stop her
She’s planned it in her head.
~*~
Organization failure
My hair is a mess
I don’t understand
How she keeps on like this
She is so perfect
The kind I wish I could be
But why bother trying
I am only me
~*~
Picture perfect
She makes a scene
Intelligent outpour
She is never mean
Pointing out problems
Saving people from hell
Why can’t I be like that
I need help
~*~
I don’t want to change
Who I am inside
A few pin pricks
And erased lines
Outside perfection
I would be nice
I want to be normal
Not have to hide.
~*~
Random outbursts
She loves to have
Making life fun
Treat for the sad
Instead I stand
Facing it alone
When will she see
I’m not the girl she knows
~*~
I’m not like you
We’re different in so many ways
Dreamful depression
Has caused me to stray
I wish I could be you
For just one day
Finally see
How you hide yours away.

Author's Note

The human story does not always unfold like a mathematical calculation on the principle that two and two make four. Sometimes in life they make five or minus three; and sometimes the blackboard topples down in the middle of the sum and leaves the class in disorder and the pedagogue with a black eye. ~Winston Churchill

Reviews

[Kat]

No one is perfect people just hide their pain and make others happy because they don't want them to go through what they went to a smile is usually a mask to hide the pain not one person on this earth knows every single detail of another persons story great write :)

[Helpless]

wow, this is incredible! inspiring and intimidating all at once! the raw emotion and beautifully worded life in this is amazing!

[Spiral Panda]

Hmm..I have to say the "blonde" hair line threw me off, but sometimes the masked figure being spoken of is best that way, just for you to know, and that person when it's time. All around, this was a tremendous piece of uplift, how it was composed, the wording, what you released inside, honest emotions. I sort of took from it that you wanted to be like this person for a day, yes, but you realized at the end being you is best as you accept yourself.

[joshua deathdealer]

A few pin pricks and erased lines (: