Social Anxiety

I have severe social anxiety, to the point where talking to a stranger in real life is literally terrifying.

Fear shines so bright, reflection in

My eyes;

Too scared to admit to things,

To my lies.

I can't breathe among people

And I cannot comprehend

Why it is I feel this way

Why I have to pretend

That the way I feel is normal.

As other people say

It's just a phase,

Just give it another day.

I sit stuck with fear,

Alone in my head;

Unable to find the words

That need to be said.

So here I sit,

Uncomfortable silence;

Surrounded by people,

Who never understood the dance

Of my silent lips.

Only to leave

Me to my demons,

Unable to breathe.

Author's Note

Anything to say?

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Reviews

[Tony Jordan]

Social anxiety is very much lower down the pecking order of mental disorders. 'Snap out of it!" is still used by some doctors to treat it. As you very well pointed out here Miss Marie Riorden no one but a fellow sufferer knows how awkwardly debilitating it can make one. I think it occurs to some degree in us all but along a spectrum. I've seen the most confident people in the world become (temporarily) dumbfounded in certain situations but the things is they quickly overcome the feelings (which are slight to moderate). The chronic sufferer of social anxiety deals with extreme feelings (rather die than interact) and day and daily.
It can get better - believe me. With age it can get better.
Keep writing,

[Miss Marie Riorden.]

Honestly since I wrote this I've gotten a little better. Ironically my worst fear happens to be answering the phone. Even my phone, haha. I'm learning to cope with it slowly.

[Tony Jordan]

Mines was the door too - the phone not so much.
Glad you're getting better. One day at a time Marie.

[Miss Marie Riorden.]

Gotta do something to pass the time

[Lost & Lonely]

wow you really encompass the feeling of anxiety. It's nice to see others put it into words. Amazing will read more :)

[Kim Dinger]

Well written. Uncomfortable silence people dont understand the dancing of my lips. Love it

[Miss Marie Riorden.]

People who don't have anxiety/social anxiety tend not to understand what it feels like for those of us who do. And most people don't even see anxiety as a valid mental disorder. That's the sad part. So we're told to suck it up and that it isn't as bad as we think it is, yet they have no clue how we're actually feeling.