Million Words

Million Words

A Poem by Beverly Jane

Nothing could ever really explain..


Million Words <3

When I saw you, my world shattered. It felt as if I couldn't find air. I'm still breathing though. I'm alive physically. Inside I'm dying. It hurts to breath. I smile, I laugh thats true. The truth of the smile, of the laugh is that it is a lie. This smile hides the lies in my eyes; that I'm just fine. This laugh, covers up the painful words I long to speak to you. I wonder if you'll ever see past the lie in my smile. The cover up of my laugh. I doubt it. You don't care and, thats what hurts the most. I wish I could say this to you. Fear takes over and, I'm through. Why does it hurt so much? I wish someone can simply tell me how to let you go.To move on and smile. For the smile to be real. I wonder if it will ever be real. I could write this all day, or everyday. Theres not enough paper or words to explain how I feel. To explain my pain. Everything about you is amazing. The way you smile, your laugh, your beautiful eyes. Do I need to go on? I wish I could be in your arms. I wish I could hold those large hands. It is impossible though. It will never happen. No matter, how much I care or pray and, hope. It's not meant to be. You and me. That's what tears me apart. It feels like someone took away all my happieness. Is that possible? I know these things but, yet I'm still hanging on, no matter how much it hurts. I just can't let go. I can't imagine a day without you in my life. I couldn't see life without your smile or eyes. Or, without you making me laugh. Through all this I am in agony. You don't see it. How is it I'm still hanging on? There was never us. There will never be us. I wish and pray for it. Even though it is hopeless. I hope for the hopeless. I smile and, I don't know why. I'm trying to stay in reality. I hate reality. I like staying in my world in an alternate reality. I'm happy there. I speak a hundred words or more and you never hear. I'm screaming your name. You can't hear. I cry but, you can't see. What's the point? I could speak a million words and you would never hear.

© 2011 Beverly Jane

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love it

Posted 12 Years Ago

I also just wrote a long poem which I decided to write from reading this one so if you could check it out please do and also my short story please one more review on chapter One and I'll write chapter two

Posted 12 Years Ago

I came here to return the favor of you commenting on my poem. I love your writing :)

Posted 12 Years Ago

I agree with smarie. This poem held my attention captive.

Posted 12 Years Ago

thank you I just let my feelings out and thats what comes out :)

Posted 12 Years Ago

Wow usually long poems dont keep me interested but this one did, its beautiful. The lines that i like themost were "Even though it is hopeless. I hope for the hopeless. I smile and, I don't know why. I'm trying to stay in reality. I hate reality."
Those lines are so brilliant to me and they definitely show how creative you are. Thank you so much for sharing this amazing poem. Never stop writing.

Posted 12 Years Ago

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Added on September 18, 2011
Last Updated on September 18, 2011


Beverly Jane
Beverly Jane

Hello, wow! It's been a while since I have been on this site, it's almost like looking at a time capsule. It's been a while since I've had the same passion that I had back in high school for writing. .. more..

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