Ghosts exploding in the gems I seek

I’ve wandered far and
Remoteness has not offered solace
Instead I found serenity underground
To call upon me without my consent
Fury has untold reckoning

The devil keeps knocking
Love does not depart for it
Opens a never ending arrival
I do not keep score
Unless threefold in sorrow
Once I was blessed
Twice I was crowned
Thrice I drowned

To breathe again
Regrets are what I failed to say
I ‘m still at home although no longer alone
The visions undefined
Ghosts exploding in the gems I seek