Should I Plan

Should I Plan

Taking simple joy from the left overs in my life during my senior years, as the cracked shell I’ve become now hides away.

Heavy that foot that landed on my back. It wouldn’t let me rise up.
No one told me I could be president or a big success, no one told me there was a wonderful bright future ahead. Rather believing I'd never see beyond my youth.

Every road I traveled lead to disappointing moments and hurting failures.
QUESTIONING!
SHOULD I PLAN?

Do I believe in anyone?
Can I love anymore?
Do I trust in anyone?
How much further do I go being this mortal person?
Sadness...I know how to adapt to, it is lifelong.
Happiness flits lightly interwoven between one day, once a month, once in a year.
Now all that happiness can be I want...In days, I want in months...and if God gives me years, I want happiness everyday too!

Author's Note

Mother's day didn't go that well

Reviews

[emmajoygreen]

Seems life has thrown you a few curved balls, Bonnie, but believe me May brings hope along with need, joy with each day you plan by opening a door or window to let in a different scent if the day today rather than yesterday. Yes? Yes! You'll be there rather than here if you want it and you do I know from the past how determined you can be. Waving, welcoiming, wbisopering, 'Go for it! Take care, keep safe, Emma.

[Bonnie Paige]

Thank you Emma, sometimes when children let you down and family affairs strangle you, you can't help wondering what was I all about?
I got a friend request from you but we've been poet friends for years. Is it a mistake?

[emmajoygreen]

Not at all a mistake but I seemd not to have you on my friends' and I needed to remedy that. Truly amd that I did, is so good to share with you. Am sad to read your wrethed new, you know where I am if needed. (Bonnie)

[emmajoygreen]

Just read your poem and realise that anyone you can write as you have, really could and can create golden days and joyful smiles, luv. Perhaps you need see yourself as others see you. There truly are people who see truth rather than what they see in their own odd perverted way. (YOU)

[emmajoygreen]

Sending you smiles on this never before 1 June.
Something told me it's supposed to have us smiling.. from a distance perhaps, but.. smiling into a glow of 'doesn't the NOW mean both both hope and promise. Yes? Hugs, dear Bonnie.

[Bonnie Paige]

Thank you for such a thoughtful message.I think today will bring good thinks and many smiles.

[emmajoygreen]

GRRREAT! Surely that means you're a true winner, dear friend!

[Lisasview]

Doesn't sound happy...appears you had no positive words said to you in your life and yet you are able to actually write your feelings down...which is so positive...
I thought the line about being the president was interesting as it struck home for me.
When I was about 11 years old my father said to me, "Lisa, you can be anything you want.an artist or even the president." Funny how a moment of approval can change your life... Oh, do not get me wrong... I did not have the perfect childhood...but now that I am much older I do remember many of those important moments.
Lisa, now in Spain

[Bonnie Paige]

I had a long and twisted life. Some typical of bad events like many others, but unbelievable events that no one would believe. The power to avoid life's entrapments comes from the unbelievable and amazing paths. From welfare kid to upperclass home to meeting elegant and wanting to be nothing less then proper I cheated street life. I do regret never having a chance to say mom or dad. Or having that bond children make with their parents.

[Silmara McGarry]

You can plan for yourself, look how far you have come and how important it is that you know that!
We cannot plan for others and that is actually good, we can in our differences respect each other including the choices we make.
A great way to let out your poem, and yes God will give you years and years dear....The future is as wonderful you believe to be in the present moment 🌸

[Bonnie Paige]

Thank you for your cheery message. Life takes little bits and pieces from you almost rendering you numb. Till that big chunk that wakes you from you coma and you can't help wondering.

[Silmara McGarry]

My pleasure dear 🤍I truly understand what you mean...I hope you are wakening to the beautiful parts of you and life🌈

[willweb]

Life is all roses and candy but it should be something similar. This reads as though life isn't being exactly as you wish it to be. Should you plan, for some things, probably but for others...there is no way to plan for what hurts us until we know what it is. All I can say is focus on the future and put the past in the past. Easier said than done...I know.

[Bonnie Paige]

Thank you for stopping to read. As a fellow poet, you know when the call to write won't let you go no matter the subject pen to paper becomes a must. I've read some of your work. It's. Been a longtime since I've read work such as yours. Are you very young and can rapp? Or old where rhyming was the only way to write poems.

[willweb]

I am old and can't rap or at least I don't think I can. : )
I am a songwriter first, so rhyme comes natural to me though I have written free verse as much as I write rhyming poetry, I just don't post as mush of it here. I might though in the future. People do get tired of rhyming poetry after a while.

[Bonnie Paige]

But it is easier to remember. In my teens I wrote nothing but rhythmic poems. I can still remember them. Now that I write free verse can memorize any of them. I find I must write from the soul. When I'm in a good mood I don't even think about writing.
Cool you can write songs! a talent I don't possess. If I did have music ability I'd put songs to some of my poems. Instead it will have to be my last book. Just a book of poems to go with my other 2 publisher books.
Good luck with your writing and songs.