Take me away

What am I doing with myself? It's a reoccurring thought. It replays itself in my head over and over. I'm in my prime years and I feel like it is wasting away as the years go by. How many more years until I actually feel satisfied with my life again? How many years until I experience TRUE happiness without paranoia.
Maybe when I'm older it will dawn on me. I will be far from this place when it hits me. This will all be a distant memory. Or maybe it won't be a memory. Maybe it will become a washed out reflection of the way things use to be. vague. So I will barely remember anything.

After the rush of high school..after these people have walked away to the college's of their choice..after the high has settled and relaxed me..I will still be me..will you?

I experience this sensation and I want to get up and move. I want to escape. Take me away. That is my only request. Leave me be somewhere unfamiliar. Let me know. Let me learn. I want to find myself. The one. I know it is out there. It is hiding in the most obvious of places. The places hardest to reach. The places right in front of me. I will walk by myself until the destination is found. Focus only on myself. Who else do I have?

The truth has come out. And it has come across in a spin of red and green. I can appear so mad. I can appear so envious. Things are as they appear. Don't let anybody say otherwise. It is exactly what it is. Can you handle the truth? I'm searching for something. Something holding this different vibe that i've been searching for.

oh but please sir. wont you take me away?