You have saved me..

We need to be kind to each other. We may not agree always but we must be willing to stand with another when the days are hard.

You have saved me..

I remember sitting alone. Holding two brothers photos of two dead brothers.
Suicide was their escape from the cold and heartless world.

Two Ojibwa/Mexican boys who saw no road except death as peace.

I caressed my 30-30 rifle.
I didn’t see any reason to keep going.
Their death laid heavy on my soul.

The phone  started to ring. I answered the call.

A old voice with kindness. My Grandmother begin to speak to me.
“We miss and love you my baby boy. I want to see you. The family need you. Are you okay? Grandma need her baby boy alive and strong.”

I hung the phone up and
I put the 30-30 in the closet.
My Grandmother knew somehow I needed kind words. She saved me.

I was drinking myself to death and
I lost my first true love.
I saw no reason to give a s**t.

My friends were not helping in Germany.
Drinking was our peace.

My time in Germany was getting short.
I decided to say goodbye to my old lover.

I went to her and
I found her crying.

She yelled at me.
Told me he is dead. Are you happy?

I told her I knew nothing and I was sorry.
I held her for three days like a child.

I brought her good whiskey and food.
Ensured she was okay.

She asked me. “Why was I  being kind to her?
I wasn’t kind to you.”

I kissed her forehead.
Silence was my answer for a second and I told her.
I came to you tonight, for a proper goodbye. I wanted us to leave with kind words, better memories.
I tried to save her and somehow I saved myself too.

Life is a fair journey. We must love and protect our family and friends.
Kindness bring kindness. Forgiveness need time and a lot of love.

We must be saved and we must return the kindness.

Laughter is life. We must hold on to it.

                         Coyote
                      March  2011

Author's Note

Thank you for reading.

Reviews

[Betty Hermelee]

She saved you, what a great ending, as in the beginning you were very unhappy, almost ready to call it quits, but when you find kindness and when you can help someone in distress that gives you hope, and to forgive and forget to start a new life is very upbeat.... a pleasant ending, I was very happy...
Warmly, B

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you dear Betty for reading and the comment. We need to lead with concern and kindness.

[Betty Hermelee]

Indeed! and you're welcome
Warmly, B

[D. Mansfield]

I enjoy reading these stories and poems so much. Thank you

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you my friend. I believe, us. Who love to write. We need to write down to paper. So our children know. We had great people in our life.

[D. Mansfield]

You are one of the great people in my life, thank you

[1809 Black Plague Decem..]

Dear Cayote Poetry, an endearment to kind words. It's hard to rekindle someone so far away, yet there was a moment of closeness. I fear loss. I'm never allowed kindness. It hurts. :S Maynard

[Coyote Poetry]

We need kindness, my friend. Thank you for reading and the comment my friend.

[1809 Black Plague December]

Most Welcome Dear. :S

[ROSALIND]

Awe my heart fills with sadness at this sorry you had to go through all of this keep going trusting Faith hope and love will see you troubles x

[Coyote Poetry]

We must dear Rosalind. Thank you for reading and the comment my friend.

[Chris Shaw]

Kindness costs nothing and yet look how powerful it can be. It can save lives. Dear Coyote I was moved by this writing. Your Grandma sensed you were in trouble. What a wise woman she was. She had an extra sense. I hope all is ok with you in your world.

Chris

[Coyote Poetry]

I am good dear Chris. Old thought and memories. Thank you for reading and the comment.

[William Michael Reeves]

Coyote truth. Some days are harder than others. Some lives too hard to live. This was a global poem. Took me around the world of your memory. Sad but touching. We'll always be a baby to grandma. She'll always try to save us. You seem to be dredging up old poetry, coyote.

[Coyote Poetry]

Birthdays make us think and wander William. Thank you for reading and the comment.

[W. Barrett Munn]

Excellent message John. I particularly like reason to return-so we can have better memories.

Winston

[Coyote Poetry]

Sometimes good to create a better ending Winston and thank you for reading and the comment.

[red93]

Excellent Work Coyote. Many times this last year I have felt God's kind hands reaching out to save me from complete disaster. We must just keep going, and trust in God to bring us safely thru ✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️

[Coyote Poetry]

I agree my friend and thank you for reading and the comment. We need the mercy of kindness.

[John the Baptist]

Grandma's calling at exactly the right time does seem to say the universe is interconnected. You picked up that thread and brought comfort to a grieving woman. It may be that two lives were saved by that interconnection.

[Coyote Poetry]

You are right. My grandmother was a strong woman and she knew somehow. Thank you my friend for reading and the comment.

[Soren]

A wonderful message Coyote. I couldn't agree more that kindness begets kindness, not necessarily from those that we give it to but from our own selves. One must learn to love and respect one self before we can love and respect others. Yes in saving others we save ourselves and in being kind to them we show kindness to ourselves.

[Coyote Poetry]

I agree Soren. Kindness and concern is needed. Thank you my friend for reading and the comment.