Do You Remember

Do you remember what you did to me

all those years ago

When you penetrated me with your vileness

against my will

left me in the bushes

broken and lost

a pretty girl in a pink dress

who is now an empty shell

 

Do you remember

how you just walked away

leaving me in the blackness of the night

unable to move

laying alone in the dirt

like a broken doll

carelessly thrown away by a perpetual child   

 

I have been forever lost in the darkness

of your evil deed

Your semen that you forced inside of me

has left a stain on my soul

and no matter how much I wash

It just won’t go

 

Do you remember this

faceless man

Do you think of those days

where you caused so much pain

or is your life now a joy

Do you have a wife

a girl and a boy

Do you think of me

when you make love to her

Think of the time you took one against her will

when you broke a little girl

sent her on a downwards spiral

to the darkness of a man made hell

 

I hope you think of me some time

That the light of remembrance

fills your mind

that visions of me haunt your days

that one day your soul

will have to pay

 

 

Reviews

[Night]

I am so sorry Carolann...Gods love upon you my dear. I can't even begin to imagine what that's like to live with, but I do know one thing...You have become, in spite of this, a loving, and very beautiful woman with a heart of gold. You will always have my love and respect.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you so much David x

[Night]

...you are an amazing woman...I know this wasn't easy for you to share...and you are very welcome.:)

[minisla]

May I say well done for sharing this horrific part of your life with us. You seem to me like you are a very strong minded person and I can only imagine how you must be feeling and why you find it so hard to forgive. A person who does such a horrendous act should never be forgiven. If you eventually do find forgiveness more power to you. I only hope it has been therapeutic by writing it. Once again a very brave person and well done.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you so much. Yes writing about it and forgiving is very healing.

[Leigh]

You are very brave, I hope your attacker is haunted and pays in hell. I found this an incredibly strong and moving write because of the way it was delivered and the subject matter.

Take care Leigh

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you so much Leigh.

[Antonio Valentino]

so very sad this happened to you, and disgusted to be part of the human race when things like this happen.. if i saw that happening i would snap that guys neck like a twig and then id really make him feel some pain..

hugs to you my friend.. i hope somehow you have found ways to go on and cope as best as you can..

((((You))))

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you so much. You're very sweet :)

[Antonio Valentino]

blessings to you Carolann..

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you Antonio to you also

[quinfinn]

umm, i don't know where you found the courage and the grim determination to share this but i am in awe of your strength, resilience, honesty and pride. this is righteous indignation personified and i am deeply moved by this revelation. if it is any consolation, there are men in the world who have the utmost respect and adulation for the fairer sex. you may count me amongst that genre of men, for i am disgusted and angered by this type of abuse. i am bristling with pride for your strength and sense of honor. this write is sensational....

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you so, so much, your words mean more than I can say. It's good to know there are some good men out there.

[quinfinn]

you are ever welcome!

[The Nameless]

Wow, this is really well expressed and so honest.
And sad, of course, really touching.
Anyone who manages to forgive someone like this would have to be one of the strongest people I know

Wonderful =D

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you so much.

[The Nameless]

Pleasure =D

[AK]

Wow! This poem is so strong and oozes with pain and bitterness. It flows beautifully like the blowing wind in an open meadow and sucks the reader inti its realm where it tells him/her a tale.
I'm very sorry that you had to go through all this :(

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you so much.

[AK]

:) My pleasure!

[Tate Morgan]

Such a violent act I cant imagine.However it is none the less something we havbe to contend with in humanity.Sad iosnt it? Makes me want to seek your retribution. I know many religeopus people would say we have to forgive .Screw that!! I wouldnt blink an eye at snuffing someone like that .

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you but at the end of the day forgiveness is the only way to go, though, it is harder to forgive someone who may not even be sorry, someone who you have never seen again. Still your right, its just life and stuff like this happens.

[Tate Morgan]

I disagree with that idea No offense intended. My daughter shares your philosophy .But I have known many a man in my life and I can tell you .The mistake is to grant forgivness to anyone who doesnt ask for it with a repentant heart.Men that prey on others will consider that idea a weakness to be exploited. To them the day belongs to the strong and they think they are right because they can hurt you.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Yes that why it is harder, if the heart of the offender is not repentant then forgiveness is hard to give. I guess it is more like a letting go of the past, no point dwelling on it and seeking revenge because that will in the end eat you up and cause you more pain.

[Tate Morgan]

You can grow stronger and let go the pain without granting him anything but pity.And that is all he deserves

[Carolann Dowsett]

I guess.

[Tate Morgan]

In the past before we had civic law men like that held high position because they crushed everyone else . Now days they find they are fodder for a jaiol cell.If they had been deposed long ago we would be searching the stars by now. But might made right for the majoprity of the human race most of our days anyway .

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#Speechless.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you.

[Chris]

Hell of a write miss...

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you.

[Jordan's Back]

another write that has rendered me speechless

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you Jeff.

[Jordan's Back]

always