A Sob Story About A Confused Nobody Who Can't Find Their Way In Life

A Sob Story About A Confused Nobody Who Can't Find Their Way In Life

A Poem by Colacat

You leave me 
But I was always there when you needed me 
You were poison in a bottle
Broken, fucked up role model

I depended on you
Because no one wants to read some sob story about a confused nobody who can't find their way in life
Everytime I see them, though, the dam you built around my heart bursts with what I assume is longing

One day they'll all see I'm something worth paying attention to
It's not just about everyone besides me

Because you told me you loved me when you were still deciding
And then blamed me when I was sick and 17

Did the diamond ring never mean anything?
Just a symbol in my curtained dreams
I thought it was you I remembered back in the 50's

I hope he knows you never have enough
I hope you know he just wants you for materlistic stuff

Curled up on the tile crying
Wondering why I was never enough
For anyone, even when I was complying and complying

Have you ever been betrayed, left behind and used?
Have you ever been endlessly devoted, loyal, condeming your own abuse?
Has your love ever been confused?

Have you ever tried to end your own story in hopes of breaking red string?

I loved you so much, I built such high pedestals for you
I didn't know how to get off my knees when I watched you up and leave

I never minded for a second to be what you were to me
Traveled the high seas to find everything you'd ever need

I won't haunt you like you haunted me
I have better things to be

© 2021 Colacat


Author's Note

Colacat
Loved you at your worst
But that didn't matter
It took you two weeks
To go off and date her
Guess you didn't cheat
But you're still a traitor- Olivia Rodrigo, traitor

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That's the worst feeling in the world when you thought who was your lover just gets up and leaves you; this is such a sad tirade of spilling out one's guts, which in the end may make one realize a lot and perhaps move on; but it takes time. A very sad poem about someone who just cant get back on her feet. Very well written with such empathy. Best,
B.

Posted 1 Month Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Colacat

1 Month Ago

Thank you so much! You write such kind reviews that really delve deep, thank you so much!



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That's the worst feeling in the world when you thought who was your lover just gets up and leaves you; this is such a sad tirade of spilling out one's guts, which in the end may make one realize a lot and perhaps move on; but it takes time. A very sad poem about someone who just cant get back on her feet. Very well written with such empathy. Best,
B.

Posted 1 Month Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Colacat

1 Month Ago

Thank you so much! You write such kind reviews that really delve deep, thank you so much!
this is quite the emotional write
to be betrayed after caring and
showing your deep devotion to
him, I can feel the pain and torment
within. this poignant piece.
heartbreaking.is an understatement

well done




Posted 2 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Colacat

2 Months Ago

Thank you so much! I really appreciate the kind review. Have a wonderful day.
Wow. You really poured out your heart in this write. I felt so much emotion from beginning to end. I really liked the series of questions toward the end, it really built up the power. Wonderfully penned write.

Posted 2 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Colacat

2 Months Ago

Thank you so, so much. I really appreciate and it makes me so happy you enjoyed it and thought it wa.. read more
I can really feel the emotion in your writing, this is beautiful. I love the last two lines where you reassert your power and tell that person “no, you know what, I’m better than you and better off without you after what you put me through”. Thank you for sharing this! You’re very talented :)

Posted 2 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Colacat

2 Months Ago

Thank you so much for reading! I'm so happy you liked it! (: I appreciate it more than words can say.. read more
To go through the heartache of betrayal, it can drain us of our energy and play havoc with our emotions. I am sorry Colacat you too have had to experience this and the feelings of worthlessness left in its wake. It takes time to rebuild confidence and strength, but it does come back. Your final couplet ends on a positive note. You aren't going to let this haunt you. You can move on and do far better. Your lines conveyed such hurt and this reader felt that. Well penned.

Chris

Posted 2 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Colacat

2 Months Ago

Thank you so, so much. (: I'm glad people noticed the positive note, and that it's never too late to.. read more
Chris Shaw

2 Months Ago

You are very welcome.
Not just a sob story. Well written. I really like this a lot.

Posted 2 Months Ago


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Colacat

2 Months Ago

Thank you so, so much! I appreciate the kind review. (:
This one reeks of betrayal and heartbreak, Colacat. I am sure many of us have experienced these emotions at some point; being totally devoted to the one we loved only to be used and cast aside for another. It hurts like hell and we've all been there. At such times I regather my strength and sense of self by embracing the knowledge that I gave the relationship everything I had. If we have done that then there is never any sense of guilt or failure. Comfort yourself in that knowledge and go onto better and brighter things. Some fine descriptive lines contained here and your emotions and feelings of loss and betrayal radiate powerfully. Well written.💛

Posted 2 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Colacat

2 Months Ago

Thank you so, so much! Your reviews are always filled with such kindness and understanding, always u.. read more

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