Second And A Millionth Best

And I'll shed no tears, I'll only keep on waiting, if no one cheers, well, I can keep on waiting. -Eden Espinosa

I see red

And I've rose the dead

Still, they don't look this way

Everyone gets what they want

Without a question of my heart

Watch them celebrate

And relcuntantly watch my heart fill with resentment and hate

Their glory never left you alone

Everything in your life was always their own

And so you wrote it in burnt orange bones

'One day, world,

You'll think of me

You'll thank me'

Tired of being second best

Tired of being told to put my voice to rest

I'm second best

But never once got a second chance

Everyone's the protangonist but me

So I'll spread my forgotten wings

Watch the overachiever overlooked bleed

The others with physical art

They're all blessed

Primped and dress, to go get another award

And by the end of the day

I've convinced myself I don't deserve it

You're a mess

Last to be guessed

And you're so pressed

You got a queen and a castle

I got a controversy and no mercy

I'm the anthem

I leave them laughing and they forget me

The very next day

You feel the villain in you bubble up

Black bubbles about to burst

Ready to steal the trophies they stole from you first

First place

Then you remember

You're second and a millionth best

You just need some rest

To take away the edge of the anger

To make it ache less

Maybe you should get some rest.

Reviews

[Chris Shaw]

When we are tired our brain runs root. That's what I felt here Colacat. It's not a pleasant feeling to think you are being ignored. Second best is better than third best but to think you are millionth, well that is way on down, a long way down. I have to say that life can be tough at times. I don't think any of us get what we want easily. We all feel like you do from time to time. Good to read you again.

Chris

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so much! I loved the review and the wisdom in each one. Thank you for reading!

[Betty Hermelee]

In life, one doesn’t always have to be the best!our world is competitive and all try to win the prize, but it’s okay to millionth best too. There is much self damning in this piece, but in the end one realizes a bit of slumber may help the pain. Excellent!
Best B.

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so much! I love how deeply you dive into words, thank you again!

[Betty Hermelee]

you're very welcome!

[jacob erin-cilberto]

sometimes I think it is best not to be the protagonist...if we do things to get credit, are those actions really from the heart?
I like how this poem raises questions about self, ego, attention etc.
j.

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so much! And yes, sometimes it's best to not always be the protagonist!