Independent Subordination

well, this is what listening to old school (& current) music does to a girl's head

 

It’s always been this way            Me

playing alone                         working alone                        sleeping alone

 

Except once                        when I had someone

But it’s always            Me            always                                    Me

who has to do the inviting                        the flirting                        the loving            the cooking

Always             Me            who finds herself alone

 

Time After Time

 

I build a ladder out of wood and breadcrumbs            so

they can find their way to heaven                         those false friends            and

c**k thinking men

I give food            and painted objects                        and anything they want to take

they grab            and I give            and I give            and I give                        and they take.

Til I’m here            alone            thinking                        What the f**k?

 

 

Swimming Pools

 

If I could only dive in                        Often I do                        But if only

If only                        If only                        If only                                    Someone had a mother f****n clue!

 

I have spilled blood

spilled liquor

spilled juice

spilled my guts out to my own mind            cuz no one else is listening

 

I have been beaten like a slave

I have exhausted myself like a migrant worker                        for little or no pay

I have been wronged                        over            and over            over            and over            over

 

PUSH

 

Cuz u got some walls to break through Mr.

Cuz I don’t know if I’ve really been loved

I don’t know                        how long I’ll live                        IF...I’ll live            to see that day

Yeah...                        that day.

 

Hold on!            I’m not crazy                        I’m just a little unwell

Just a little abstract                        Wouldn’t you be?            If...                        If...

If you was a Frankenstein experiment?

If you sang like Bob Dylan                        and danced like Shakira?

If you took 7 meds?

If you had nightmares and heart palpitations and near death experiences?             and...

good people dying                        and s**t holes living

a brother who robbed his father            and left you for dead?

a friend so ugly on the inside she’s rotting it outward            toxic waste dump style

but hey...

 

Ain’t Nobody Like You

 

Damn baby            I’ve had boys in and out my door            but...            you know...           

yeah, you know...

I don’t like it when I’m left to feel like cigarette ashes on the floor            Damn.

 

I miss the days when I had frequent sex.

I miss the days when I had shared meals                        in bed.

I miss                        I miss                        I miss                         that mutual attraction

Mutual satisfaction

I f*****g miss it.

 

Strange Fruits

 

Why I gots to be so oppressed?

Why I got to be so blessed only cuz I been so cursed?

Why!

 

She’s Always in My Hair

 

Whenever I try            Whenever I cry                        Whenever I fight to the death

I think of you                        You know?                         Do you?

 

I’d Die Without You

 

and half me thinks I already have.

 

Do you...            Do you...            Know what it feels like?  to be

 

 

Stuck In a Moment You Can’t Get Out of

Stuck In a Moment You Can’t Get Out of

Stuck In a Moment You Can’t Get Out of

Stuck In a Moment You Can’t Get Out of

Stuck In a Moment You Can’t Get Out of

Stuck In a Moment You Can’t Get Out of

Stuck In a Moment You Can’t Get Out of

Stuck In a Moment You Can’t Get Out of

Stuck In a Moment You Can’t Get Out of

Author's Note

Watch the dorky video of me reciting this spoken word: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fOnhGgg7Thc&feature=share&list=UU7dWf7Mtc2CFhtEZBnF5hGA

Reviews

[Babe Roxx]

I would Love to hear you read this aloud, Coco...awesome poem. :)

[Colette]

I recorded this one with my computer cam before I left for Santa Cruz. I'm playing around with iMovie to insert some music clips. I really want to move toward video, and thinking about taking a class. Have you ever tried SoundCloud? I'm going to try that to just for audio clips. ;) Thanks Ev for your never ceasing support!!!!

[Babe Roxx]

Cool...I should do some audio...but my voice is deep. Oh well.

[Colette]

Yes, U should! Please do! I posted a link on ADPS

[Colette]

Hey Ev...I just posted the link to the video under Author's Note above ;)

[Babe Roxx]

Thank you, Coco...I will check it out.