Broken Chord

That little selfish voice in the back of my mind piped up when I thought of him...

I want you for myself today

Am I being selfish?

I want to hold you close

So I know

and have proof

that you haven't left me

I want to forget the world today

and see only you

and me

together like this

on our favorite couch

I want you for myself today

But I can't

You're not mine completely

I hate sharing you with others

Yes, I'm selfish

But I can't stand it

I want to tell you everything

rage at you for leaving me behind

But I can't

I can't

I just can't

I know it's important to you

to do what you love

but you love me more

don't you?

I'm watching you

as you drive away from my house

This isn't my home

Please take me back

to our home

I cried today

when your car vanished from my sight

I stared at my phone

reaching for it

desperately wanting to hear

your voice just once more

I'm so sorry

I'm greedy

I want your attention on me

I want you to be here

with only me

Did you know

that when I saw you tonight

I wanted to tell you

needed to let you know

that whenever you take me home

and whisper

like a sweet caress against my heart

that you love me

I almost wish

none of this was real

Because having you with me

here

now

at this very second

Heals and harms me

more than you'll ever know

I want you for myself today

So I can maybe

hopefully

finally say

thank you

For loving me.

Author's Note

I've noticed how much my writing has turned to either something inspiring or something depressing. I'm not sure which this is -sigh-

Also, normally I'm not a needy person. But I do have my moments.

Reviews

[Jersey]

I find this very shocking how close to my own feelings this poem is. I, much like yourself, am not usually a needy person...but when it comes to love and feeling as though I am not alone in sharing the love of another I tend to be. I love this poem, the emotion is real and very evident with in each word.

[KatiePie]

Through out the entire piece, it has a cloud over it, it's sad and the reader can feel that, but in the end you make that silver lining on the cloud really shine. I smiled a bit, but a genuine bit nonetheless at the end, because even if the love isn't perfect its still that, love, and that makes it imperfect, but it also makes it the closest thing to perfect there is. There's something about love that's so amazing, something about it that's so enchanting, every one wants the perfect love, it's the closest thing to magic and that's why we want it. Beautifully written. Thank you for sharing.

[David W Moore III]

Nicely written, and definitely strong feelings.

[Dream Weaver]

Sounds like an overly possessive love.
Suffocating and one sided. Not to say
that the love one feels is not real, just
a bit overbearing and not a great
formula for success in a relationship.
Distressing, yet well written..

[Marie Harrison]

Strong yearning desires with this write. Well versed poem.