Jealousy.

I don't want to see you smile...unless it's from me.

Your laughter is painful to my ears when I don't know where it came from.

Happiness is a feeling I want you to discover with me.

And your heart should only beat for mine...

Your kisses should be cold unless they're on my lips.

Why are you looking at her with those eyes?

Love means nothing, unless the sentence ends with hate.

I don't want to be weak in front of you.. I don't care about anything...

But, you know that's not true, that's why I let you see me cry...

So, baby, can you please not smile when I'm not around?

Can your eyes stay dark until you see me?

I know deep down, once you trust someone like that, all that's left is pain...

My insecurities stay in my pocket, so I'm ready to have to say goodbye any moment.

How much do you guys talk?

She's my friend, I trust you all...

Except, once someone's with me, I know I can't trust them anymore,

Because to be with me, you have to lie to yourself and pretend you're sane.

When you say my name, you have to pretend that it doesn't sicken you... 

When you're holding me close at night, you have to keep yourself

From running away as fast as you can.

So, trust isn't an option in a mandatory world.

Why must I be such a monster?

Can't innocence survive?

Why must everything be twisted and misshapen?

Your eyes are like the moon as they follow me always,

And your words are like the seasons; ever changing. 

Maybe I'm okay, maybe I'm reasonable, maybe you're the reason

I can't be sane?

Maybe you're the one, who brings out the worst in me?

Maybe.

Still, please cry until I arrive. Then the sun will shine.

Reviews

[Just Cat]

Wow... jealousy can certainly overwhelm. It's a horrible thing though, although I think everyone is capable of it, even the most saintly of us.
The last stanza really speaks to me, the moon and the changing seasons part. Brilliant writing. And the green is a very apt colour for this piece.
Great writing! :)

[Chris]

Ownership... a fair description.

Take care
Chris

[MS. BABy]

This is so good....wow makes you wonder where the line between jealousy and love intersects and crosses or just lies comfortably at a nice median....brava...

[Daytonight]

Mistrust is a horrible thing to have to live through. Well penned.

[WindSong]

This poem really has a lingering depth to it about the risk of love. Very well written, and I truly enjoyed reading it.

WindSong

[stars are far]

this is AMAZING i loved it a lot
and the feelings are sometimes felt by me lol
great work :)

[Raven Starhawk]

I like how you chose green to express the emotion of jealousy. I also noticed that as the emotion builds the green gets darker.

[Day Dreamer]

So much jealousy in this world. Too much for me to handle. Very eye opening. Keep writing! :)

[Rose of Gondor]

Ah, jealousy. Such a terrible feeling. It's terrible to be jealous of someone and terrible to have someone jealous of you. You've captured the feeling. Wonderful!!!!! YAY!!!

[brenda]

love this !!!!! favorite :)