Me and my friend

Before I met you, I was the girl who was always alone ( Even though I still feel that way now ) I didn't have a single friend growing up in grade school, everyone made fun of me because of my weight and how I look.  When I first met you, I thought yhat I had finally found a friend, after a couple of days of talking to you, I had you as a friend, my very first friend.  I know that we had our differences since then, but I get this feeling that you don't consider me as a friend anymore, I noticed you today that you and another girl were talking about me...again...and I can already tell that it was something I didn't like.  I know it was something about me complaining alot, you've got to realize that I don't like alot of things, and that I'm going through alot of stuff for the last few years, and I'm sure that your going through some stuff as well, and I can understand that, but what I don't understand is that: Why? Why must you and her keep reminding me that I complain alot? I already know that, you have got to realize that I'm not what I use to be.  I use to smile alot when I was younger, but I don't do that anymore, my smile is gone.  I don't have my happiness anymore.  I have even been told before that I am suffering from depression and I still don't know if I do or not, I try to put on a smile on my face to fool people and I even wanted to fool you because I didn't want to hurt you anymore ( And I don't know if I hurt you already )and the reason for that is because for the last 10 years that we have known each other, I have thought of you as more than a friend to me, but more as a sister, you know what its like to have a sister, I don't and I never will, whenever I was around you, I thought I had a little sister beside me ( Though you are only a few months younger than me ) and that is something that I always wanted growing up.  I have never got to tell you how I really felt about you because you know me better than anyone else how much I hate that lovey-dovey stuff, I've hated that stuff ever since I was a little kid, I don't know if you do or not but I won't go into that, you and I use to be so close, but for the last few days, I got this feeling that you don't consider me as a friend or as a sister anymore...now I don't know if that is true or not but I don't care anymore, all I want from you is for you to tell me what you really think of me, thats all I want from you, nothing more...nothing less...and if you wish to end our friendship, I'll respect your decision...I've always been alone anyways so it won't really phase me that much...I'm a freak, I'm not like everyone else, I'm not like you, I don't know how to be like eveyone else...all I do is hide from everyone else because all they do is look down at me...they always have and they always will...I'm not attractive like you...I'm not pretty like you...I'm not even as smart as you...you know what its like to have people surrounding you...loving you...caring for you...I don't have that type of luxury...I never had...what I'm getting at is that I accepted you for who YOU were, nothing else, I didn't care about your looks or your past...and you should do the same...I've been like this for almost all my life...but after that day on January 16th, 2010...my life came crashing down...you were the only one there for me, when people brought you down, I was there for you...nothing could tear us apart...but I get this feeling that...that day...really tore up apart completely...and I don't know if we can ever come back together as friends anymore...or if we are still friends...we are even further apart...In conclusion...I want to tell you this...I love you...not as a friend...but as my sister...I love you...forever and always... <3

Author's Note

I hope this made sense, its something that just popped in my head, hope you enjoy it

Reviews

[AK]

Wonderful! The emotions are just great! I loved it!

[Forevermore]

damn u made me feel it through the whole thing, the way you wrote it i felt it was real. u knew what you were doing and i love it. somethig i can relate to some what. hope to read more of ur great works :)

[Courtney Eastman]

It sucks so much when things like this happen. My friend who I've known since we were three is doing the same thing. I feel like we don't even know each other anymore. I hope everything gets resolved because I know how much it hurts :(

[SilentDreamer]

Aw how sweet and sad. People can be such morons. Hope things work out for you.