Ten Years Changed

Ten years of ups and downs facing a decision that will change their lives forever.

I lay here all alone even though you are lying beside me in our bed.

I remember the day we married; I remember the words we said.

Our love we pledged forever,

Until death do us part.

Through good and tough times,

Nothing could tear us apart.

At first, we believed these vows,

we tried so hard to stay strong.

One moment we only cared about each other,

the next trying to prove each other wrong.

I continue to search my soul for I cannot be the only one to blame.

Every time something goes wrong everyone screams my name.

For every action something happened just before.

Was it every hurtful thing you said that led me out the door?

Spending all our money on things we did not need

My heart was hurting badly, and my mind was feeling greed

Things were getting worse nothing nice was being said.

Your hurtful words and comments made me wish my feelings were dead.

Then my mind drifts back to that day once more, looking deep into your eyes.

Wishing it could be that way again, erase the heartache and the lies.

I never intended to cause you pain,

It tears me up inside.

Knowing that I hurt you, knowing that I lied.

I know you want to forgive me; please know I have forgiven you.

I will never hold it over your head because the future is brand new.

The betrayal that you feel is overwhelming to say the least.

The demon in my life was small but is turning into a giant beast.

I have never had a person mean so much to me that I would give my all.

You have loved me no matter what even when I stumble and fall.

I know you are afraid and baby I am scared too.

Ten years are not worth losing, again I would say I do