I'm Selfish

I realized something yesterday.

     Something happened to me yesterday that I want to share with everyone. I was at the vet picking up medication for my dog. I had to wait awhile, so I sat down and talked with the doctor.

     Let me go back 9 months ago, my dog is my world, I have had her for 11 wonderful years. She was diagnosed with Cancer. I thought my life was over when I heard that. She was given 4-6 weeks to live. The past 9 months, she has been fine, no symptoms at all.

     So here we are, 9 months later and now my dog is showing symptoms and she is not doing very well. I am sitting with the doctor and I told her, "I just want what is best for my dog, I don't want her in pain."

     When I was driving home, I thought about what I said. I have been so selfish! How am I going to live without her? It is always, me, me, me. It is not about me. It's what is best for my dog.

     Then I thought back and I see how selfish I have been my whole life, it's like something hit me to make me realize this. I can't explain the way I feel now, but it is a good feeling. I know it will be hard to lose my dog, but she has had a great and happy life.

     I know that I will get through this now, and she will be ok, and so will I. Whatever happened to me in the vets office, I'm glad it did.

THE END

Reviews

[Samuel Dickens]

Yes, you are human. Who wants to let anything beloved go? None of us, really. It requires acceptance and I think that's what you found. I think your dog has had a wonderful life, living with you.

[Donna]

I thank you so much for your kind words. They mean so much to me.