Let Me Love Again

What is it that I can’t forget?

Why is it that when I feel that I have achieved some degree of sane separation from you, you re-appear in my thoughts?

Have you not tormented my soul enough; have you not affected my life in a way that I seem to be unable to repair?

Please tell me what it is that keeps you near.

What is it that draws you so close to my heart?

It cannot be love for we had nothing when you were with

Only a friendship that ended so abruptly with thunderous roar

So what is it that keeps you afloat in my thoughts?

 

Of course I loved you, but did you love me?

In that hour you told me the truth behind my wandering thoughts and revealed how much I had mistaken you actions.

Yet I cannot seem to escape the thought of you.

You are merely a controllable subject; A necessary burden to hold in cell within my heart.

Please leave me alone

Let me live

You have told me what you wish to say and I have accepted your reason

Let me live my life

Let me find love again

Let me love another same as I loved you

 

I cannot live with your shadow so close to my own.

No matter where I turn; no matter the angle of the sun; your dark and gray cast falls near

It is true, I loved you once

I confessed that long ago

But I must go on and I must continue

You must let me live my life without you

You must leave me be

 

Do you care for me?

Do you love me?

You should have said so all those years ago.

You should have confessed your own truth as I did

We would not be in our present state had you

But that is only a thought

That is only a dream

 

Please leave me be.

Let me love again as if you never were.

Let me believe that I can move on.

Yes, I loved you.

But now, I must love again.