To Mum

very personal :))

There are a lot of things going on
this pressure, this cold feels so strong
the purpose of my living seems nothing now
if i could just risk everything in one day i'd say kill me now

You only see me when i fail
i feel like i've been passed by a gale
you never listened to me all along
i sigh and you always say i'm wrong

Tired of crying up every night
all these darkness and peace beside the window
all i wanna do is hug you tight
and just let everything flow

Nothing seems to change
your words like knives doesn't seem to fade
been feeling like an empty vase
that did nothing wrong but still breaks

Crying in the afternoon hits different
like the way you love me with resent
greeted me with your sudden anger
until i teared up and remembers how unfair you were

Listening to some songs
sobbing all night long
these thoughts i have in mind
makes me more sincere to die

I'm a young person
whose dreams and passion are the reason
that makes me wanna wake up
and disregard all the disrupt

I wanna say goodbye
and be free like a bird in the sky
adore living the other life
but i wont give up this, being alive.

All i wanna say is
please don't regret having me
i'll always love you
and i know that you'll always love me too