Fruit Salad

My mind gets to wandering
And I think about you
My brain ponders us
The glory days and how we ended
The pain I caused because
You were leaving and I was afraid
Unable to cope with the distance
I had no trust in myself
I didn't believe you that we would be fine
So carefully I said goodbye because
I didn't want to hurt you like
the others had done
Though still you said you
wanted to kill yourself
It pulled endless guilt into my mind
Weighing down my stomach
Filling my body with sickness
I gaze upon my thighs
Skin ghostly pale like a bowl of milk
Strawberry and cream scars symmetrical and parallel
Guilt translates to a dull ache for more
A senseless yearning for cherry slashes and raspberry gashes
Envisioning juice dribbling down my limbs
Collecting on the cool tile floor in a fragrant vermillion puddle
The Cool Whip whites of my nails dig into fleshy peach palms
raising swollen dragonfruit pink crescents
Grape and kiwi bruises blossom like sunflowers
I slather myself in imaginary injures
Wishing I could do the real thing
Wishing that it wouldn't only hurt you more

Reviews

[Ashira Macy]

Um, wow! This was amazing. Dark, creepy, and sad that the narrator feels so compelled to inflict so much self pain. I loved that you ended it with them not actually ripping their skin apart into physical shreds to match their poor mind. Amazing emotional work.

[Celestial Witch Child]

Thank you! (:

[eeoopig]

This is a great poem. It has great description and use of words. My favourite were "cherry slashes and raspberry gashes". Thank you for sharing

[That_Girl]

This is phenomenal! You are so talented. "Strawberry and cream scars symmetrical and parallel / Guilt translates to a dull ache for more / A senseless yearning for cherry slashes and raspberry gashes" Favorite three lines but the entire thing was.... perfect.

[Cole Hayley]

Finally a new piece! I always enjoyed your reading, and I love the new name ;) . A great piece of course. as usual.

[Cosmic kid]

Very emotional and beautiful imagery
"Skin ghostly pale like a bowl of milk
Strawberry and cream scars symmetrical and parallel"
This would have to be my favorite part

[Owlgirl]

This is amazing. I love the food descriptions and emotional with sevral meanings to be taken forth.Beautiful.

[Destinyxi]

Wow... this is really emotional and deep. This was a great read. I feel the pain, raw and real, etched deep in every single word. Great poem :)

[Fréyjä Helv..]

wow... That's another way to put a wonderful dessert... Only painful though... A good read. Love the emotional imagery, fruits and injuries are an unusual combination... You pulled it off... nice work...

[Talismanic]

I feel like such a copy cat... This is genius. It's so pure and I can't compare it to anything else I know, just how a song can feel like the saddest ever written when it has only the lines 'all is full of love,' and the irony is, namely, it isn't. Pain described so beautifully only intensifies its reality.

[Celestial Witch Child]

Thank you.

[Dr. Wood ?]

you see I think that you are very gifted... This is really not my scene though,,,I understand that every poet has to write and that each and every one really has no control over their emotions whilst they are doing so...It is good that you let this out, I myself used to write in this VEIN...not a pun....I think you will move on to better things...I repeat my normal words...I AM NO EXPERT...Ignore me if you want, I have no wish to offend anyone...WE ALL SECRETLY HATE CRITICISM in any form

[Celestial Witch Child]

Thank you. (:

[T. Logan]

I like how you made pain sound almost beautiful with all the fruit descriptions. This is really good!

[Celestial Witch Child]

Thank you. (: