Fading April

You have poisoned my thoughts with your memories

You have become nothing but the death of me

Bit by bit you consume the soul of me

Lift me up then drop me from your silver lining

Break and restore before you break me again

Is your philosophy, as you drink from my pain

Cut me wide open before you walk right through me

My pain your pleasure, my loss your gain

I wake up each morning mourning at your smile

I beg of you please take a break on me

I beg of you to please break my heart

I beg of you to please release me from your wrath

Please just make smile with your absence

Your absence that has scarred me with scars to forever last

Go ‘head and put a cup next to my chin as I cry

Go brag to the world about the latest addition in your collection of hearts

Write it in the sky-line that you are happy

Tell it to the world how you really loved me

Tell them you never meant it and I was the one weak

And I’ll just be making you notes that say “I MISS YOU”

I’ll ink every single letter with blood from my scars

I’ll sink every single pillow with my teary nights

I’ll think everyday why you avoid me yet it hurts me

And I’ll thank you everyday for the love that you gave me

I know it’s not in the options but I still pray you stay

But when you stay you put knife right through my heart

And when you go you rip it out leaving me in broken parts

So as you fade with this month of April I’ll whisper your name

In this poem sealed with lies through so many tears

Reviews

[Gbannersauce]

I know when something is good when I start to read and I can feel what the poem is saying. I felt that here; I felt that sadness and for one whole minute I was sad even though I wouldn't relate, at all, to this topic at this time in my life. It was a wonderful experience the read this poem so thank you for that.

[G!o]

I was really drained when i was writing this piece. It was like the only thing keeping me together were the words that kept on playing in my mind. Thank you....

[Rtrt]

No one could reproduce this feeling or imagine it and explain it this way. The insanity of the rhythm of thought, can only be caused by a broken heart. The I hate you, I love you, go away, are you OK banter is genuine. Truly from the heart, keep writing. Thank you

[G!o]

Thanks...i'll keep my pen on the run as always.

[Brielle Cartny]

I know how you feel. Such a struggle when friends or a special relationship seems to go off all wrong.

[Baby Ricochet]

Jeez was that heavy. I think I need some therapy just for reading it. I entered the poem "After The Home Coming" about what I went through in 09 after my last Deployment in Iraq in the greatest struggle contest. The same contest this poem's in. Naturally I want to win but against this? I don't know. This is one intense poem man. Talk about broken painful emotion. Wow..

[Jvonne]

Love it, absolutely love it from start to finish! Great work.

[G!o]

Thank you Jvonne...

[Call_Me_Miss_Imperfect]

Wow, this is truly amazing! This really tugged my heart while reading this piece of art. I know how it feels to want someone that only hurts you and act as if the relationship meant nothing to them. One of the worst feelings in the world to go through. Love actually is a tough situation to ever go through. You feel shattered and broken most of the time.

"My pain your pleasure, my loss your gain" I love that line the most! Usually that's what happens to me. While I'm upset and suffering from the pain, that's their pleasure seeing me upset. I see a loss and all they see is a gain. Bravo, for such an amazing piece! :)

Adding to my library :D

Ashley Rivers-- your friend ;)

[G!o]

Yeah love must be the biggest risk anyone can take. Just imagine your heart pumping not in your chest but in someone's palms, someone who can just wake up and crash it using a train and then just go away smiling. Thank you for the review and oh at least i made it to your shelf. :')

[Call_Me_Miss_Imperfect]

I totally agree with you on that! Love's a real risky decision any person could ever take. That makes everything more depressing and painful when I see it like that though. O.o but you have a point there! That's how some people get treated in a fallen relationship. I'm usually the vicitim in every relationship that I've had. It totally sucks. You're totally welcome and haha you deserved it! ;D

[G!o]

Sorry about being the victim, i've been there...a very familiar ground to me...but i'm sure there's still a knight not wearing armor that's coming for you. Just ensure he has no armor on. The ones clad in that are usually the ones that fall in love with their mind set on running away...

[Call_Me_Miss_Imperfect]

It's okay and I hate that you've been one also. Oh I see what you're talking about, one day he will come :)

[G!o]

Well Rivers, you aren't the only Nightingale on this tree, :( i think my wounds are my feathers. You are in the right place though plus you can let your pain shed your tears.

[Call_Me_Miss_Imperfect]

I understand that I'm not. It sucks though because this world has gotten so shattered and filled with broken hearts. :/

[G!o]

Yeah and the broken hearts have lost their hopes in finding the pieces so they'd rather stay lonely. It's sort of a dark era.

[Call_Me_Miss_Imperfect]

Yeah, this gives me a great idea for a new poem XD

[G!o]

lol pen it down I'll be waiting to read it. It sure will be interesting. This same topic gave me the idea to the poem i posted here yesterday, Oh love Oh love. You should check it out.

[Call_Me_Miss_Imperfect]

I sure will check it out and aww thank you. I might end up posting it tomorrow if I ever get the idea straight :)

[G!o]

I'm pretty sure you'll get the idea. You always have. Just un-heal one wound and let your pen take control and i just got an idea of a new poem too. A collaboration poem, something of that sort...

[Call_Me_Miss_Imperfect]

Yeah that sounds like a good idea haha. :)

[G!o]

Glad you like it then maybe we can work something out... :)

[Call_Me_Miss_Imperfect]

Yeah, sure! Just message me whenever you have a plan together :)

[G!o]

Okay... *wink*

[Call_Me_Miss_Imperfect]

Haha alright :)

[Stormy Weather]

Wow. This is a really powerful poem. It's like you took a very common, relateable feeling and crafted into a painfully beautiful piece that's completely unique. Very enjoyable. Nice job!

[G!o]

Thank you and well that pain i felt was pretty much unique than any other pain i've ever felt...

[Bare trees]

It's so painful yet so common to see relationships collapse after being so good. Familiarity breeds contempt as they say and most times someone winds up hurt. I don't know why that is but it's hurtful and you've shown that through your words here. Nice writing G!o.

[G!o]

Thank you and it just sucks when you have the complex of always being the victim..

[Bare trees]

You're welcome and yes, it does suck indeed.

[Balkaran Sidhu]

Gooood...

[G!o]

Thnaks...