Identity

Identity

A Poem by HumanHotTopic
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An identity struggle portrayed as a poem. WARNING: CONTAINS THEMES OF: SELF-HATRED

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Lying on my side
Apathy is all that's left
Knowing I never tried
I roll onto my chest

Silently screaming for an answer
I put on my headphones
To them I'll always be a her
A feeling of decay now spreading through my bones

"What if I'm not a her?"
I whisper to those who wouldn't listen
I push my emotions down farther
And stuff them farther than they can be driven

As the beat blocks my thoughts
I sink into the lyrics
My heart tied in knots
The voices in hysterics

I know my gender
But I can't tell
I want to stuff my head in a blender
My thoughts putting my through hell

Are you dead?
"I wish"
The melody loses its grip on my head
My thoughts returning with a swish

getting whiplash from my thoughts
I turn the sound up
Hatred hitting me like shots
Why does my brain suck?

© 2022 HumanHotTopic


Author's Note

HumanHotTopic
Hope you enjoy. Contains a line from This Is Home by Cavetown

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It must be so debilitating to feel this way. Your words conveyed anguish and confusion. Identity appears to cause a crisis for many. You aren't alone. Thank you for sharing.

Chris

Posted 7 Months Ago


HumanHotTopic

7 Months Ago

Thank you for reading. May you have success on your writing journey.
Chris Shaw

7 Months Ago

That is kind of you. I thank you. Same to you:)
I really like this write, I feel like I can personally understand where you're coming from when you wrote this. Thank you for sharing.! You're an amazing writer I hope you know that!
-K

Posted 7 Months Ago


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Babygurl

7 Months Ago

Thank you, you as well! can't wait to read more of your work!
HumanHotTopic

7 Months Ago

thank you! may you have success on your writing journey.
um . . . because apparently my last review didn't go through(?), I'll repeat it here and hope it works this time. Sorry!

This is written absolutely wonderfully. I can imagine the sort of turmoil this sort of situation can bring about. I've struggled with identity before - not quite at this level, though - and it can be so draining and terrifying. That final lines really hits the nail on the head

Posted 7 Months Ago


HumanHotTopic

7 Months Ago

Thank you! may you have success on your writing journey.


Posted 7 Months Ago


nice i enjoy the content of the poem :)

Posted 7 Months Ago


HumanHotTopic

7 Months Ago

Thank you!

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Added on April 12, 2022
Last Updated on April 12, 2022
Tags: vent, sad, melancholy, identity

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HumanHotTopic

Tecumseh, MI



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