PainA Poem by HB RitaSuffering
I'm suffering,
You do not understand Frequent fear of living in pain eating my brain everyday I do not know what the future has set for me I do not know how tomorrow's morning will be like, I do not know what a day is without pain How will my bill be paid, uncertain? Am I losing my physical capacity? I do not even know The journey in uncertain darkness increasing my pain levels No one understand how I am living with pain everyday.... Neither you. I am shouting with fear I do not think anyone is listening I feel I do not have any friends All the family members have abandoned me Even the doctors were exhausted changing the medicines They say, it's working You say, this is all in your mind Stand up, walk and run You don't understand where I'm stuck You will never understand I am constantly screaming with pain I am living in a terrible nightmare. You do not believe that I am the one who can only measure the depth of pain Look at me Listen to me I am a poor girl turning in to blue in severe pain Thinking of uncertain recovery, mental disorder is vulnerable I know there is no way to cure this pain I also know that there could be a horrific ending for me Nevertheless, I want you to give me assurance of being who i am I want you to reward me Because I'm brave, I am a warrior I welcome a new morning every day living with pain Rush to serve the family in the kitchen Wash the dirty dish bowls Keep them comfortable I do everything with intolerable pain I do not leave anything for later. You say steroids, morphine will jump me to sleep You do not agree that every night I'm tired of sleeping down my sleeves I go back to nostalgia I think, who was I one day? I can not match myself today I feel helpless I steam so loud and realize The pain slowly drilled into me, all the way inside I call on God I say, O God! Why me? Why it is only me? He remained unaffected as usual Therefore, again I fall a sleep in a mutual understanding with pain The next morning, you judge me wrong looking at my slimy face Because you are not aware of the nightmare i just had You really do not understand; I spend every night in fear Carrying the horrible pain in my body everyday, I realize, the smell of the human body is disappearing.... ______ © 2019 HB RitaAuthor's Note
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4 Reviews Added on March 30, 2019 Last Updated on April 1, 2019 AuthorHB RitaFlushing , NYAboutHB Rita, ancestors Bangladesh, live in NYC, achieved higher education at Touro College and University in New York. I am involved in New York City public school teaching for 14 years. I am also a well.. more..Writing
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