Years of Pain

I was so brave

Then you weakened me

You told me comforting lies

You made me believe 

I started to fall under,

Your cruel spell

Helplessly in all the pain

I started to crawl

You pushed me all the way down

and I picked myself up and tried again

you pulled and tugged 

I held and hugged

You hurt me so much

But I still healed all my pain

You made me cry almost everyday

But I stopped the flood of my tears

You repeated over and over again 

It went on for so many years

I tried to bring myself back

but you held  me down

muffled my painful cries

and made sure no one was around 

And I let you do it every time

because I loved you so

Even when you broke me down

I would beg you not to go

I needed you like air

And loved you more then life

Why was i so blinded?

by my feelings left inside

Now I am stronger 

I am  back to who I was

and all i want is revenge

for all those years of the painful lies

So you can push and pull 

because I'm standing tall

I'll no longer be the first to fall.