Toujour

Always

I knew that when I lost you, I loved you, and wanted you back

The solution, for absolution, to get our lives back on track

Was to lose you, to hate you, to sever all ties

Fading belief, as the pain and the grief seeps away with tide.

 

There is no other, I refused to recover, yet I’m on the mend

A happier place, smiles return to my face, and if not I’ll pretend.

New people to love that I would prove that could last

It's tough, yet sure enough, you became just a thing of the past.

 

I forgot you, I revered you, and we drifted apart

You found a man, and I slowly began, repairing my heart

As appearances change and anxieties ease

Waning disdain, as the hurt and pain are swept away with the breeze.

 

 

I knew that when I lost you, if I loved you, then I must let you go

If perhaps, you wanted me back, then I never could know

The temptation to relapse or retry, from them I must refrain

Because perhaps, if you could love me again, it wouldn't be the same.

 

You knew that when you left me, I loved you, but that couldn't suffice

I forgot to show love, to act on love and therefore I paid the price

And you tried, I know you did, but we just couldn't win.

I suffocated us, and you were unable stop us, choking from within.

 

Things were different then, seasons since have come and gone

I don't despise her as we grow wiser, we settle with the deeds we've done

But to miss you, means to love you and wounds open again.

I long for the day, someday, when this heartache will end.

 

I knew that if you love me, like I love you, then time will not taint

The love that we had, still have, and forever I’ll wait.

Forgotten for now, not forever, or so it may seem

I still love you, and you still love me, albeit just in my dreams.

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Honest and direct words my friend.
"Forgotten for now, not forever, or so it may seem
I still love you, and you still love me, albeit just in my dreams."
I liked the above lines. Solid and true. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[TL Boehm]

This is a very lyrical write - would be interesting to hear it either set to music or read out loud - there are some wonderful repeating sounds in this.

[KAOlmsted]

I might have read all of this if it didn't remind me of a rap song. A ... bad (ducks and runs) ... rap song. To your credit, this is a great poem...I'd love to hear this freestyle.

[Joe Palmer]

I'm not a particularly big fan of rap, hip-hop more so. I'm just getting into spoken word, so maybe I'll give it a try. Thanks for your thoughts!

[KAOlmsted]

Always my pleasure.

[Josie E. Cook M. A.]

Love that died, but won't hide away...
Can it be forgotten?
Longing for closure and the healing suture to the bleeding heart.
Wounds still open and seeping
Desire to be free again in love.
:)