My Hidden World

An example of how writing is a escape

Writing is my outlet

My expression I don't let anyone see

                                                                     My very being

It is all that is beautiful in me

           all that is ugly.

It's the light that's been in my soul from the start

    The darkness in my mind

The love in my heart

                The hate that made me blind.

        When I write, I put pieces of myself in the pages

     My blood and tears

My wisdom, my dreams

                  My thoughts and fears.

My memories.

and my nightmares.

The compassion and care

my need to stay here

Everything pure in me

mixed with everything that                                      is evil

Writing is my hidden world

Where I can be myself

Where I control everything

It is where I go when

I am found                                                                                                                                    

I am lost.

Escape to the pages

a fictional world of my making

because at times...

                       I don't want to live here

   But when I write

I am a God in my books

I am no longer a victim

   I am no longer broken

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Author's Note

This is Three poems that is formed into one. They all fit together, and can be read together or seprately.
They show different sides to why I write.
The left side expresses my pure feelings - The good things that make me right
the right expresses my dark feelings - The bad things that make me write
And the center piece ties them both together.

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Very good use of thoughts. I like the many thoughts and emotions in the words. Many reasons to write and create. Just must organize mind and thoughts. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[KaoticOrder]

writing is a really great expressive outlet for me. thanks for reviewing =)

[Coyote Poetry]

You are welcome. Me too.

[Damien Thibodeaux]

THIS IS VERY COOL!!! I started reading this as one poem, then by the time I was half way through it, I noticed these lines could be read as 3 separate poems too, as you explain in your Author's Note. What a unique and creative write. Your words give voice to the heart of every poet. You are a very gifted artist. This one goes in my library as one of my favs.

[KaoticOrder]

Thank you for the review and adding to your library!

[Joe_VILOT_]

wow again not sure what to say really just to say I see something about your pieces that speaks to me
speaks to me of pain and triumph a journey and the ability to make it through the barren landscape of desolation
and find the oasis of rich welcoming creation with the spring of youthful keeps just wondering what its all about?
7777777777/77777777

[KaoticOrder]

Honestly, sometimes I'm not even sure what I write about. When I write I reach into deeper levels of my subconscious, and pull out what I'm really thinking. Sometimes it is in kind of cryptic messages I have to decode, they can be messages from my higher self or my younger self. I'm not sure which. I'm a Shaman, and I add my practices into things like writing to get in touch with different levels of my being.
this one here kind of expresses the light and giving side of my soul, as well as expresses my darker side.

[Joe_VILOT_]

life throws us the crumbs of the trail and all we can do is pick up on where to go. past the gorse bushs and to somewhere else to make it to find the green meadows and rivers of milk an' honey.
Everyone has a story to tell and yours is a blessing so do what you do best tell it.

8=)

[KaoticOrder]

That is very true. One thing I have found is that this life is a test, and if we pass this test we will find those green meadows... Hopefully the rivers are juice and honey... Seeing how I'm lactose intolerant. XP