Some NightsA Poem by Lauryn
Some nights
When sleep just won’t take over Because my mind is heavy with thoughts of you My heart falls Into this empty pit Wondering over And over How I could have fallen so hard For you. For someone Who couldn’t care less About me Treated me Like nothing And I allowed it Like I was nothing. My mind replays Every moment of every day and every text message and every look across the room and I wonder to myself- Was any Of it Real? Or was it just in my head? I allowed myself to be nothing. And it makes me sick to this day So sad and depressed-paralyzed with the knowledge that I could stoop so low To allow it to happen to myself I lost myself for so long And looking back I have come so far And yet have still so far to go. And so on these nights When the pain wants to take over once more I have to cry To let you out of my system Again and again So overwhelmed by own feelings for you That it makes me want to shut my heart forever My heart aches for the person I was And the parts of me that still need to release you Like toxin needs leeching from the body I need to release you from every crevice in me you managed to stick to Much worse than glue How I wish strong memories could be deleted Or forgotten. I remember how badly I wanted only you How foolish And simpleminded I was Willing to accept not even the Bare minimum Just settle For empty promises And hours left on read Being strung along For mediocrity at its finest Red flags and warning signs All lit up on my dash Only for me to crash With all this brokenness and all this pain All this healing feels like it’s down the drain But it’s not The end to my story. -June 24th, 2020 @ 10:05 pm © 2020 Lauryn |
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Added on July 30, 2020 Last Updated on July 30, 2020 |