I hate myself

Sorry. Im very sad right now. I need to get my anger out somehow without using a knife.

I never do anything right around you! 

I make you sad with everything I do!

I'm worthless.

I'm a failure.

Knives tempt me.

Ending my life would bring peace.

I never seem to make you happy.

I do everything I can.

I have a million plans on how to die.

Each one so easy.

You are social. I'm not.

You are smart. I'm dumb

You are right about everything. I seem to be wrong all the time.

I try so hard to please you.

Each time I fall short. 

You have a life of your own.

I just don't seem to be given much thought.

I cry myself to sleep, because I can't please you.

If you knew how much I tried...

I'm sorry.

I'm horrible.

Useless.

A loser.

Everyone knows it.

I have jealousy problems.

It's only because I love you.

I want you to be mine.

You'd rather talk to strangers than text me.

I'm sorry I can't be your light.

The person you would rather talk to than do anything else.

I know you are to me.

I put you ahead of everything I do.

A knife seems to be the only comfort I can think of. 

This will be another teary night as I lie in bed.

Thinking about you.

And how I can never please you.

Reviews

[Isabelle Faye]

I know exactly how you feel, trying to please a loved one but never managing to do anything right. I'm going to tell you something you've taught me... When you love somebody there isn't anything thing you won't do for them including change yourself if you think there's something wrong with you. But, in a loving relationship, you shouldn't need to change because your loved one should love you for who you are. The poem is painfully beautiful, every word piercing deep to the heart. I can feel the pain and despair seeping through the words and I feel it with you. Wonderfully written though the subject doesn't really suite the word wonderful...how about heartwrenchingly written?

[Legolas]

Thank you Isabelle.

[Charles Phifer]

Bro, seeing these sort of poems really gets to me. There is absolutely no reason for you to hate yourself. You are alive, you have good times with your girlfriend i'm sure, and you're 15. Embrace all that is around you and don't get too worked up about if you're pleasing your girl or not, you'll think too much in the wrong directions. Girls feel the same way as guys do. If she loves you as much as you love her, everything you do will make her happy and satisfied. Just being with you is enough. So cheer up. It gets worst later on, yeah, but there will be times when you'll realize that it's worth it.

[Legolas]

Thanks