Drowning

I feel myself slipping beneath the surface.

The control over my life evaporated from my clutches.

The people I once relied on, 

Have left me stranded.

This feeling of complete helplessness washes over me,

As if I was paralyzed from the neck down, and thrown into a lake.

There is no chance of escaping,

But yet I can't help but try.

 

I can feel myself slipping beneath the surface,

As my relationships fall apart.

The bonds that I have worked so carefully to uphold,

Have snapped like twigs.

Tears can slide down my cheek,

But it will only drown me faster.

 

I can feel myself slipping beneath the surface,

As I take on too many responsibilities.

My goal is always to survive,

But yet, I put the saftey of other victims before myself.

I confront death, and look it straight in the eyes,

And tell myself that I can take it.

I take on as much control and power that I can muster,

Even thought it weighs me down,

Bringing me closer and closer to my demise.

 

I can feel myself slipping beneath the surface,

As my arms and legs are ready to give out.

My whole body says let it go,

My whole body is ready to give in to death's wishes.

But my mind persists.

My mind, ambitions, and my heart refuse to give in.

Especially without a fight.

And so I stay above the surface.

But you can't tread water forever.

Author's Note

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