MomA Poem by ChristineHow can you, or all people, make me feel this depressed?? I see you every single day. And have since I was born. You brought me into this world.
Yet I feel so unimportant to you. Like I am just this pest that you can't evade. I keep coming back, because I'm drawn to you. You seem to be sure an important figure in my life, But sometimes I'm not so convinced.
How can I feel loved when, if I'm crying, all I get are scoldings? when I'm down, you don't even seem concerned? It makes me feel worthless. Like I did something wrong. Which just makes me cry harder.
I'm exactly like you, Mom. We are both so hard-headed. We have a need for control. And when we don't get what we want, Its a fiasco.
Why can't you see that? Because what you say to me sometimes, It really hurts. All I want is to be exceptional in your eyes. But I crumble under your high expectations, Your judgemental thoughts. I just can't do it. Its not possible.
How can I face you if all I see in your eyes is dissappointment? Because thats all it seems like I am to you. A big dissappointment. Like I can't do anything right. Like everything's my fault. And thats the way you make it seem. I can't take it. © 2010 ChristineReviews
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1 Review Added on November 4, 2010 Last Updated on November 4, 2010 AuthorChristineKenosha, WIAboutI know my writing sure won't be as good as all the stuff on here, but I'm tired of keeping all this bottled up. This will be my release. Now I will try to keep everything I write about completely anon.. more..Writing
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