embracing the emotion

embracing the emotion

A Poem by Lydia Shutter
"

remembering mom

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photo by jennie marie schell

courtesy of fineartamerica.com




sometimes i think i hear it

for just a moment

the IV pump beeping rhythmically

through middle-of-the-night angst

and in that moment i remember

the stale air

            the semi darkness


the roller coaster ride

of illness-convalescence-new illness

and the indifference

masquerading as compassion

from the “professionals”

the ones who told me i was a good daughter

                        but i had to let go

what did they know?

my world turned inside out

and then upside down for you

you held on and so did i

we ticked off days one by one

you occasionally giving me the gift of a smile

or a memory only we shared

            now that daddy was gone

the weeks sometimes had 10 days

each one holding what seemed like more than 24 hours

centimeter by centimeter i measured my steps

down the hallway to your apartment

never sure what i would find

never sure i could handle it                

but i did

because i am your daughter

strength is in my DNA

i carried you as you had carried me

your green eyes sparkled with pride

tonight’s the last night of chanukah

my third without you

the candles will be lit

and i’ll say the prayer you taught me

yes, i will handle it

treading softly on memories

embracing the emotion

i miss you

 

© 2013 Lydia Shutter


Author's Note

Lydia Shutter
very emotional this time of year...the photo accompanying this poem is of tulips because my family is from the netherlands. they were mom's favorite flower.

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i love the worth choice and power shown throughout this piece. it is so sad, that is inevitable, and i loved how you never slowed on the emotion and power and you just kept going no matter how painful this must have been for you to write. writing emotional pieces is very easy to do in such a tough time. i admire your work and how you write very much.

Posted 7 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Lydia Shutter

7 Years Ago

Thank you so much for reviewing an older poem of mine. I appreciate it. Lydi**



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I am sorry for your grief Lydi. This is a lovely depiction of your love and devotion and the pain of having to stay strong just when we are weak. Loved the pop at the 'professionals' I am a care professional by background and even I cringe!

Posted 7 Years Ago


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Lydia Shutter

7 Years Ago

Thank you for your warm words, John. Sorry if I insulted you with my words. When people who did no.. read more
What a sad but fitting tribute to your mom and using the symbol made it more personal. You are honoring her with this wonderful write...:)................

Posted 7 Years Ago


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Lydia Shutter

7 Years Ago

Thank you very much, Sami. I appreciate your review. Lydi**
Sami Khalil

7 Years Ago

My pleasure...Any time...:)....................

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