Chapter 6 Daddy Issues

Robert realizes it's time he deals with his inner demons

“What's for dinner?” “Mashed potatoes and A Fillet of Beef” “Sorry Robert… But I would have gotten it” “It doesn't matter” “Ok everyone sit down and eat” “I love you mom” “I love you too, sorry that had to happen to you Robert” “Where's the Blue?” “Um.. You finished it last night..” “No! I saved one for this night! Where is it?!” “Sweetie you drank two last night, don’t you remember?” “No! You stupid w***e, where is the Blue?! You drank it didn’t you? Cuz you hate me! Do you want to leave me or something?!” “Come on Rob let's go..” “Where?” “Some where but here…” 

 

That night… That night was the first night I wanted to get out of that hell hole… That night Joel took me out for the night, haha we didn’t even come back until dawn, what do I do? Do I hug him? “Robert… I..I-” I bear hugged him and whispered “Don't say sorry, I'm the dummy that left you..” I’m fighting back the tears, this emotion, I never experienced this much happiness I feel like I might explode “13 years, It feels good to see you again little bro’’ “It feels good to see you again to” I sat back down waiting to talk to him like a little kid waiting for Santa to come on Christmas night “So 13 years.. We’ve got a lot to catch up on” “Haha, yeah” “Ok you two catch up, while I get a beer” I hope he isn't an alcoholic still “You… You do that” Even Joel was worried, does that mean he still is? “Is he still an- “ “Yes, sadly something he did not fix over those 13 years was his alcoholism’’ Of course he didn’t “So, do you have a family?” “Yeah, a wife and 3 kids” “Nice, your kids?” “Oh, well I have 3 sons, Paul, Harry, and Loui” “ That's nice” “What about you? “Well I have 2 sons and a daughter” “Aww that’s nice” “There’s George, right next to me, Henry, and Lois’’ “That’s cute wheres Henry and Lois?” “Lois is in daycare until dinner is finished and Henry is with his mom” I should probably get Henry and introduce him to Joel, all of a sudden I heard a bottle of beer slam against the table “So ya’ll caught up?” “Yeah..” I really don’t want George to see him gets drunk, I have to think of something quick “Well I’m going to try to find my wife and pick up Lois, but it was nice to see you both again” I nudged George and he got up, I hope Joel got the hint. As we walked out I said to George “Sorry but I don't want you to have to see my dad get the way he does when he gets drunk” I really didn't want to tell him that “Why?” “Because he… He does things that he does not mean to do” At Least I hope he does not mean to do them “Oh..” “Let's get Lois” “Sure” “Hi” “Oh, you're the one with Lois right?” Wow she remembered me? “Yeah” “Ok, let me look for her” She picked up Lois and brought her to me “Here she is, she is very well behaved for her age” “Thank you” I smiled and walked away “Hey Lois! How was your first day?” I still talk to her in that high pitched voice, I wonder when I have to stop that… “I wonder where Doris is at” “Probably with Henry” Smart-a*s “Hey Rob!” “Hey Joel” “Can we talk in private?” “Um sure, George do me a favour and find Mom and Henry and tell Mom I’m with Joel” “Ok, does she know who he is?” “She’ll understand” “Ok” “What'd you wanna talk about” “Let's find somewhere to sit” Yeah I am pretty tired “Under the cork tree”I said exactly “Like the good ‘ol days?””You still remember that?” “Yeah! We got out of that house every time Dad got crazy” “It’s insane how time flys by” I can defiantly agree to that “Like I already have 3 kids and a beautiful wife, and you to” “Right?! It seems like yesterday I was 10 and you we're 15, planning on making our own farming business” “Haha yeah” “Sorry I left... “ “Hey the past is in the past, I can't blame you for your or anyone else’s mistakes” That night I left… “This food is amazing mom, thank you!” “Your welcome” “But where’s dad?” “He’s still getting the seeds” Yeah right… He’s probably with his call girl, just thinking of that makes me cringe to my stomach “I'm gonna get some sleep” “Ok remember you have school tomorrow” “Alright” “Yeah?! Well wanna know what I was doing before I was here?!” “What?!” “Tracey!” “What?! You we're supposed to be loyal to me!” “God dang it not this again” “Don't get into it!” “Why Joel! They do this every night! I'm tired of it!” “Rob…Rob! D****t” I heard aloud Smack “You useless tramp!” I tackled him, tired of him and his mistakes “Stop it! She’s your wife! Not your property!” I couldn't get it through his thick skull “Dad!” “This is all your fault!” What?! “Well you know what?!” “What?!” “I'm tired of being what you want me to be, feeling so faithless, feeling lost, I don't know what you're expecting of me, put under the pressure of walking in your shoes!” “You are worthless to me!” I don't know what's worth fighting for… Why does he have to do this?! Does he mean all of this?! “Forget you dad!” he stood up “If you step out of that door don't you even think about stepping foot back into this house!” I looked back at him and just walked out