Alone and Improving

Recent self-reflection after a lot changed in my life forcing me to leave some very special people

Tall long cherry wood table,

Tall long cherry wood table with a decorative crate of flowers,

These flowers caught my eye; perfect fall colors,

deep yellows and reds.

Soon I find myself staring at them so long that I tune everything else out, and my mind turns the spotlight on me. Me.. well I'm thinking about you, and how the distance has kept us of from being just that. 

Thinking of the lonely that grew in loves place and the desperation to remove it,

Attempting to fill a void  the size of a softball, is lot more work, a lot more time

showing me how much it takes to love myself. Funny how I never notice how much maintenance it is to make me happy.

Oddly enough I end up finding myself grateful to the  decorations on the table and building a mirror to cover the void. 

Shielding it from the  unworthy ones chosen out of frustration  and showing me my reflection as a reminder to pour into myself.  

Author's Note

Recent self-reflection after a lot changed in my life forcing me to leave some very special people

Reviews

[Crowley]

This is an amazing piece. The warmth of the tone and description paint a melancholy floating on a layer of hope and strength. Really loved this!!