An emotional hold on me

Feeling like your mental illness's control you, instead of you being able to control yourself, until you finally break free.

She looks into the mirror

hating what she see's

A person full of chaos

That brings her to her knees

So frequent, intense and strong

Her emotions have the power

The extreme highs and lows

can make everything turn sour

An intense fear of rejection

so she pushes people away

Those that she wants to be around

she is scared they just wont stay

Fear of everybody hating her

is just to much to bare

feeling so alone

like nobody ever cares

She often feels abandoned

lonely in her eternal pain

knowing that she has done this

causing self inflicted pain

She tries to manage everything

triggers are all around

in this chaotic world

sense just isn't always found

she is impulsive and thoughtless

a whirlwind of destruction and despair

when trapped inside her vortex

no hope or care is there

people do get frustrated

Her, they struggle to understand

she's not doing it on purpose

nothing is ever planned

It's a constant daily battle

for her, and all those around her too

she wants you to know she's sorry

for all she puts you through

All she wants is freedom

from ADHD'S emotional hold

she's doing everything she can

trying not to give in and fold

She hopes to be recovered

one day she'll leave it all behind

move on and discover herself

a way forward she will find