Forgive Me For This Insanity

Forgive Me For This Insanity

A Poem by Morgan|Intelligent|witty|gemini

Electric currents shock my system
As I try to comprehend these feelings
I don't like to let myself feel things
they call it fear of commitment
It's not about that as much
as It's about self-preservation
sometimes I feel suffocated 
because I feel so much
and these busted lungs 
can't handle everything at once
so I drown my blood with drugs
some that allow my emotions to flow
others that stop my mind from spinning
either way It's hard to stay sober
for too long in this crazy life
I can handle the stress
I can handle the pain
But when it comes to love and like
a panic breeds in my soul
because I'm afraid to show myself to these women,
these demons owned me for so long
I'm covered in scars
some you can see
some you can't
either way they show themselves someway
they're damaging despite their invisible
and owning that fact is tough
taking responsibility is even harsher
but if I want something honest and genuine
that's exactly what I have to be.

© 2019 Morgan|Intelligent|witty|gemini

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Added on September 13, 2019
Last Updated on September 13, 2019
Tags: Mental Health, BPD, poem, poems, monolouges, monolouge, inner monolouge, mental illness, feelings, emotions, life, free verse poem, sad, sadness, empty, emptiness




My names Morgan, I'm 26 years old. I have a pretty cool cat and a witty personality. I tend to have a lot of emotions and feelings that I don't always understand or that I understand all to well, eith.. more..