Sanity Lost

 

Months of perseverance

Seeps from my veins

Remembering a feeling

I tried so hard not to crave

With surgical precision  

I am on an all time high

Meticulously crafting yet another perfect line

Fulfilling my addiction of a different kind

 

Tomorrow is another day

Maybe finding a new way

To cope with this unspeakable despair

But today I am going to rely

On this cold, stainless piece of steel

To help me to reveal

All that I am unable to say

 

Frustrations, wash down the sink

Trying to find the balance

Inside the cracks of a unstable life

Holding nothing back

Keeping an ever watchful eye

On a fluid that never runs dry

Completing my cycle of staying alive

 

Crimson and thick

Never did I stop to think

That this addiction

Would once again become

An active part of this already torn heart

Shamelessly following this gloomy path

Right into a world so threatening

 

Forbidden friend, so quiet

Seductress of my soul

You have me hooked

Bond by a lust, with which you have me fooled  

Desiring your touch

You have left me in the dark

Staring at the aftermath of a living corpse

Now naked, covered in precious blood

 

 

Reviews

[The Tao of Bri]

A very powerfully strong poem from the depths of the core. REsigned, yet there is a glimmer of a hope and that is all that takes for a flash of lightning to cut or save. Vivd imagery..your word usage has many particualrly poignant reverberations...instilling that much more tension and release in the poem.

[Lafayette]

Your words touch so many places stirring many thoughts in colors from deep within the soul, I really enjoyed this a lot. Thanks

[Scirrocco]

You just gripped my thoughts and kept me me focused on each and every word here Natalie. Beautiful in it's saddness yet harsh in its message. No reason to slice into life but there is every reason to live it Nat.

I love it when a piece of writing makes me feel something and this definitely did.

[Belle Morte]

It's powerful, emotional, brilliant. The imagery is amazing. And that fact that you wrote it in red, perfect. I really enjoyed this poem. Very good job on this peice. :)

[Steven Williams]

Fantastic. Brilliantly written and definitely goin on my favs list. Thanks for sharing it with me. The pic at the bottom was a phenomonal addition.

~Stephen

[Deborah Leah Krempa]

Sadly written, tragic and very well penned. Thank you for sharing. Debileah

[Joseph - Michael]

Damn, I seriously loved this one. And it's going to be on my list...

So, it's all great here...

[Alex Walters]

Good choice of words.
Very strong and emotional.
Well done.

[Christian Walters]

A wonderful piece of writing, filled with such vivid emotion

[Gary H]

So I sat and stared at the words. The colour impacted on my senses. In some respects I'm pleased that you didn't use black as this would have effected the mood of the poem too well. By using 'blood' red the flow becomes more liquid and, indeed, I could feel the cuts deep inside draining out of a soul.
So I sat and stared at the words. This is a very personal poem coming from inside. In some respects the line 'surgical precision' incorporates all the thoughts here. The structure is very hard and there is power in the words - noticing you have not used expressions found in previous reads which have been more endearing.
Although I couldn't review this when I first saw it, re-reading again I think this is a very fine statement of expression. I know you will not give in as this poem seems to indicate because I'm not going to let you.

[Alma]

wonderfully- descriptive piece of writing, I love the simple, smooth subtlty of every line. You bring your message to the point yet not being obtrusive, but smoothily working your way out, developing a whole story, a mood, an attitude that leaves the reader pondering, yearning for more...
'now naked covered in precious blood': WOW!!!