After 2 years I'm still your butterfly

I saw a butterfly go past me today
And I thought of you
Remember our cute little nicknames
Mr. Thang n his Butterfly?

On October 15, 2007
I lost the most important person in my life
My boyfriend was 19 years old when he died
His killer: Himself. And his diabetes

I never knew why he did it
And I never will
All I have left of him
Is one picture

The tears I cry for him will never not flow
Every May 2, every October 15
I lie on the floor, in my living room
And I cry

I cry the tears of a broken soul
These scars are bared
Only for him
He's the only one for me

I can never heal
That void, never gets filled
I cast a spell, each year
To bring his soul piece

There's not a moment where I don't think of him
I loved...no...I love him so much
It still hurts, every day, every night, every moment
But in some way...I know he's watching me for above

I love you

Reviews

[Airila]

:D Thank you. *Blushing*

[Rockebah]

A very heartfelt piece of writing. Loved it. Wonderfully written

[Airila]

I never really thought of myself as strong...but I guess you're right.

[Holly]

wow, the amazing part is your strength to talk about it.

[Airila]

Thankies

[Pepsimax]

so sad, so revealing, only someone who has suffered could write like this. very well written.
sorry

[Airila]

Thanks.

[DaDiva]

this piece was very touching. Sometimes the only way to heal a hurt is to express how much it hurts. A very beautiful piece. Beautifully written. My deepest sympathy for your loss.