Trying to Heal

This song is what I was listening to while I was writing ..

It's 2:00 am ..

My eyes are desperately dying to get some sleep..

They haven't slept in weeks..

Or seen Happiness in a long time ..

They were just thinking about how much they hate you .. hate seeing you .. hate falling for you ..

Hate everything they saw about you ..

I am just struggling to get myself back ..

I never imagined how hard it is to move on .. to get back on your feet again ..

It never took me this much time to move on , I never felt this weakness inside of me before..

They say "Time heals all wounds" I believe its all up to you and its all in your hands to move on and heal ..

I am trying .. everyday .. not to think about you ..

but all my heart can think of is how cruel and cold you are .. 

I hate you for hurting me , for hurting my heart and shattering it into pieces .. for crushing every single organ in my body .. for causing my body all this damn pain ..

I hate you ..

I just know deep down inside that one day , when your back to your senses..

 I will cross your mind .. and you will regret hurting me , and lying to me ..

cause I was so damn pure,honest , genuine and truly myself to you ..

and what do I get in return ?

F*****g pain ..the pain where your whole damn body cannot hold on , where your mind can't function , where you heart can't beat normally .. where your veins are cut with cruelty ..

I will Heal .. 

I will stand up on my feet again ..

I will find myself again..

It just takes time ..

Reviews

[Robert Strzalko]

This captures the pain of heartache as well or better than anything I've read in a long time.

[Sasha]

Oh my gosh that means a lot !! Thank you Robert ! Appreciate it ! =)

[A. Amos]

You kept your heart in this poem, one can sense and feel depth of your pain.

Loved it

[Sasha]

Thank you :) Appreciate it !

[Paul Seaman]

Those of us with Hearts that still work, must be careful... they are precious !

[Sasha]

Absolutely true Paul !

[Buddhistboy73]

thanks for sharing this positive, if heartfelt piece....:)
the depth of emotions are laid out for the reader to imbibe.....the pain laid bare on the page....
well written, and I love the hope in the final stanza...:)

Time heals all as they say...:)

BB

[Sasha]

Thank you BB !
Glad you liked it ! :)

[VALORMORE DE PLUME]

I feel your pain. I have had similar experience, with love. Yes, time,to heal. But then, in time, I found my true soul-mate. As you too, will. There is healing in writing. Thank you for sharing this reminder, of love, gone wrong.

[Sasha]

Thank you Valormore :) Appreciate it !

[Josie E. Cook M. A.]

Theses words are the same to others that have experienced and shared your pain over the same situations. Your words come across well and invoke the emotions involved in pain and hurt, and that aching in the soul that you want to go away.
Well written about this type of incident and there lingering and lasting feelings that need to go with the healing process.

[Sasha]

Thanks Josie ! :)

[Josie E. Cook M. A.]

You are welcome! :)

[MsJewel]

I could feel the emotion in your words...I like the feeling of hope at the end.
Time does heal all wounds, although some take longer than others to heal.
Great writing and a pleasure to read
:) Julie

[Sasha]

Thank you ! =) Appreciate your feedback ! :)

[joshua sky]

I like the optimism expressed in the last four lines of this mighty work. Sometimes the path back to restored being can be arduous indeed. But it's walked one step at a time and we find ourselves in a place ready to withstand yet another barrage of trials that will make us that much stronger on the other side. Thank you for this...

[Sasha]

Indeed ..! Your most welcome Joshua ! Glad you liked it ! :)

[Frieda P]

Veins cut with cruelty, you can certainly feel the angst flowing out of them..can tell you wrote this rant of a poem with every cell of your being. Nice job! Good choice of music too...

[Sasha]

Thanks Frieda ! Appreciate it :)

[Frieda P]

My pleasure, reminds me of something I might write after not sleeping for days. ;-)

[Sasha]

Go for it ! ;)

[Frieda P]

Most of mine are in the vault...ha

[one sky]

This is so moving. Sometimes it's all in a rant...but the love is still there which makes it hard to forget. But indeed time can heal. I have been there, and I assure you that it's true. Yes, time can heal. Just believe.

Nice ending. It's optimistic.

[Sasha]

Definitely !
Thanks for your feedback ! :)

[one sky]

You're welcome.