Trying to Heal

This song is what I was listening to while I was writing ..

It's 2:00 am ..

My eyes are desperately dying to get some sleep..

They haven't slept in weeks..

Or seen Happiness in a long time ..

They were just thinking about how much they hate you .. hate seeing you .. hate falling for you ..

Hate everything they saw about you ..

I am just struggling to get myself back ..

I never imagined how hard it is to move on .. to get back on your feet again ..

It never took me this much time to move on , I never felt this weakness inside of me before..

They say "Time heals all wounds" I believe its all up to you and its all in your hands to move on and heal ..

I am trying .. everyday .. not to think about you ..

but all my heart can think of is how cruel and cold you are .. 

I hate you for hurting me , for hurting my heart and shattering it into pieces .. for crushing every single organ in my body .. for causing my body all this damn pain ..

I hate you ..

I just know deep down inside that one day , when your back to your senses..

 I will cross your mind .. and you will regret hurting me , and lying to me ..

cause I was so damn pure,honest , genuine and truly myself to you ..

and what do I get in return ?

F*****g pain ..the pain where your whole damn body cannot hold on , where your mind can't function , where you heart can't beat normally .. where your veins are cut with cruelty ..

I will Heal .. 

I will stand up on my feet again ..

I will find myself again..

It just takes time ..

Reviews

[Sami Khalil]

A great rant and rave...I hope you can get some healing ...A splendid read and write...:)...............

[Sasha]

Thanks Sami :)

[Sami Khalil]

You are welcome...:)...................

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:( It hurts can even scar, Can take us to things where dreams hold the fears Yes it takes time my friend. I use to say I hated the 1st woman broke me seeing her in a bed we shared with roses and writes I stayed up all night to do in tears. It did a lot to me for wow 7 years, and I let it. Your write is bold and holds depth to all.

[Sasha]

Thanks Jonathan :)

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Your welcome my dear friend:)