Tired Soul

Pretty edgy

Welcome to the test

I like to call it the feeling of being oppressed

Everyone’s stares

Everyone’s glares

The burn into my skin

The feeling always wins

I start to let the tears flow

I want to let go

You think I’m always okay

I’m only acting like life is a play

I play the part of always fine

But really I want my heart to flatline

You think I can bounce right back

Right after I get an emotional smack

I don’t and I won’t

I simply smile to cope

I never want you to know

That behind my smile is a world I won’t show

I’m starting to go back on trusting you with my heart

I feel like you’ll tear it apart

I’m afraid of you

I know this is out of the blue

You have so much power over me

Why can’t you see

I’m screaming and crying

I feel like I’m dying

You never try to help

No matter how loud I yelp

Its like you can’t hear me

Very clearly

I’m saying I’m not fine

You don’t seem to understand I’ve reached the line

Lock me up

In a place if I erupt

I am heard and I am seen

Please drug me up, keep my thoughts clean

Keep me sane

No more pain

11 more away

Lots of pills blissful ways

If I scream and cry and quit

I’ll always have someone to throw me back into the pit

So welcome to the test

I’m sure you are ready for the rest

Life is a game

All you have to do is act somewhat same

You can pass through life

With all your strife

Just be warned

I’ll be a thought in the wind

A person you’ll see in the end

Because I quit

I’ve given up on this s**t

See you at the end of the test

Just remember these  words as I logout unlike the rest

I love you, please do your best

You have to pass this test