Immersed in pessimism

It's never right to linger on our sorrows.While I try to suppress them and move on,when the silence surrounds me,it consumes me,and I cannot help but mourn.

I seek comfort,

Dire need of prayer.

Sadness engulfs me,

Silence judges me.

Friends,they don't understand,

Guilty,I feel...

All for my selfish demands.

Time passes,but I have not healed.

Devastated,pathetic,

So I must seem.

Ominous life,

No sunlight to beam.

I can't feel happy,

I feel too depressed,

Somebody,heal my soul,

I need someone,I need a caress.

Made resolutions,

but to no avail,

My pessimistic sadness growing stale.

It's not me,it's not my choice,

I live according to my inner voice.

Mourning more and more,

Concerned about life goals,

More distant than I was before.

A moment of happiness,turns into tears,

Stronger over these years,

But still too weak,

Dire need of prayers,

Comfort I seek.

No one is around,

They all seem not to care,

Utter solitude,a norm,

But something I still fear.

Reviews

[♔ CrownedDevil &#..]

I agree with David Scott.

Kaze~

[David Scott]

You are not alone... No matter how much you may seek it at times. Still, only you can choose your state of mind. I have learned this first hand. I will have to re learn it again I am sure.

You have my deepest sympathies for the pain bringing you to this poem, yet it is good to purge the pain like this. Just dwell on what you want your reality to be. What we feed our mind is what our mind will consume...

Thank you for sharing and I for one have been there.

[Talesha]

Mourning and death,two things I wish would never happen.It affects us so much and you're right,few can really understand.That's what's so painful about it.In mourning,we really are alone and there's not one person that can really get what's going on in your mind.I've been proven wrong today as you can empathize.I can't said it gets better in time,it's just that we suppress everything,consciously and unconsciously too,nothing really takes that pain away.We may be good today or for months..then we may hear,see an image of the lost one,and well everything comes crashing down.

[Coyote Poetry]

I understand mourning. I mourn for 5 years for two brothers who committed suicide. I believe we need to mourn. I believe better to mourn alone. Few can understand what we feel and need. I can feel the sadness and heartbreak in the poem. Some pain need time and distance. Thank you for sharing the poem and your thoughts.
Coyote