Convictions

I can't have this I can't have that

every where I turn to pick something up or hold onto it

its conviction this or conviction that

I understand why im not to no longer have access to them but

telling my flesh that and getting it to comply is a never ending war inside

I try to remain humble and obediently let go of the many things that God says no about

But, in my flesh I cry out and throw a tantrum because i want to keep them and am comfortable in having had them for so long

Don't get me wrong I always lay down what he deals with me on

But , lately some of the things just feel unbearable and I become fearful

because I don't want to displease him in saying no

even when deep down thats all I want to do because giving things up seems unfair to me

I understand the importance of listening though

But, I hope for one day soon I will wake up and be conviction free

because, I feel like a piece of me is amputated each time I have to lay down or give up  something

But, I know there is reward for obedience and these thing cause a hindrance to me

not to mention how many times Ive backslidden due to worldy  temptations & being weak minded

which is what opened up the door to over take me in the first place

So ofcourse I don't want to keep hold of these things , because I don't want anything taking hold of me other than

My Trinity

So yes as for Convictions I am laying them down gradually ...


It just seems like they are never ending and because of that I have to pray alot and get my flesh back under subjection to God because my flesh is unwilling

I must confess


 laying down convictions are so hard


But, I know to God they are everything ...


And, so because they matter to him they matter to me and I will let go obediently ...


Lately, I am just doing alot of crying ... But, I know that Godly sorrow worketh repentence .... So onward christian soldier  I go !

I know I am on the '' battle field for my Lord ''
and fighting against this flesh is always going to be a challenge


But, I know in doing so God has something far greater and better for me than any of those things ever could offer me  ....



And , knowing this and being able to come to terms with it I am becoming more content because having Jesus

makes it all worth every thing I have to continue to get rid of ..... for me to remain free!


And, I am beginning to count it all joy when God deals with me ...

even if it does cause a brief moment of sadness & some crying ....

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

You are right dear friend.
"And, I am beginning to count it all joy when God deals with me ...
even if it does cause a brief moment of sadness & some crying ...."
The above lines I believe. Life can be joy and sadness. But we need to appreciate the good days. Thank you for sharing the powerful poetry.
Coyote

[Su' Nacnetaf]

Beliefs aside, I can relate all too well to this, not from the religious point of view, but still. Nice piece.

[Farmgirl]

Thank you , I am not religious either ...

I am just very spiritually involved with My Godhead :)


Thank you for your visitation ... Do come again .


And ah yes we all are connected spiritually in life and in death ...

[Ladylove]

This is deep I love it great job keep up the good work