Relived

 

It’s indescribable

When you relive

An experience

In your mind

To reproduce it

On paper

In words

To look at it

As you once did

All that time

Ago.

It’s strange

Looking back

On it

With a new

Understanding

And newly opened

Eyes

Examining something

You knew not

Lost

Or

Forgotten

But hidden

In the darker

Corners.

Feeling those

Emotions as

If it happened

Closer

Closer

The venom

Before it

Was sucked

Out.

Nostalgia

Perhaps

Thought slightly

Bitter

But not by

Much

The naivety

Of before

Flooding the

Veins

With false

Blood.

Sometimes

Sometimes

A vision appears

Of you

(Younger

Of course)

And him

(Or her)

And the scene

Plays out

Over and

Over and

Over again

Until all that’s

Left

Is the feelings

Of then

Not now

Until you

Slap the sense

Back in

(Or out)

And the vision

Disappears

Like light

Dancing around

Your head

As

A

Halo.

And

Sometimes

Sometimes

You may be

Ashamed

But hopefully

By now

You understand enough

Not to be

And you can

Write

Explain

As if

As if

As if

You still had

It.