Insanity

This is what I was thinking when I found out schizophrenia is hereditary.

The fear that grows within me cannot be quenched as my life is slowly being drenched. 

Cursed, hollow and pitiful existence. Why live when everything thing will go to waste? Why plan if my future I'll never taste? 

Sickening madness coursing through my blood deafening sadness that soils me with mud. All because of my parents...Because of destiny, I will grow up into the cold and threatening arms of insanity. Please, you there, help me...Don't let me fall. I am lost I have no one else to call. Prisoner in my own mind. Fighting to remain like my own kind. The womb of thoughts give births to strange and distorted ideas. I am just the beginning of a deadly ordeal. Ready to cause sadness and despair. Against my own will I will share. My sad and depressing end...As my insanity through my generations descend. 

Should I just end it now? Put a end to this prophecy? Or is there hope? To put a stop to this legacy.

Help me and I'm sorry but I'm growing insane. Will you run like the others? Or will you share my pain?

Reviews

[conversations with her ..]

you're so intelligent....


im stunned with this one.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Wow! First of all just because its hereditary doesn't mean you will get it. It just means you have more of a chance to but there is also a big chance that you won't. This is amazingly written, I can feel your fear and your anguish and your need to want to just end it now out of fear of what the future might bring. But you can't, no one knows what tomorrow will bring and every soul has a purpose on this earth to fulfill. Your life can be what you want it to be. Just stay away from the things that can mess with your mind, especially drugs and you will be fine. In God there is always hope so don't give up.

[GlacialStars]

Wow...thank you. I know that there's only a chance that I get it but it doesn't stop the threat from being present and the worse is that its in the mind, maybe just by telling myself that I don't have it bbrings me to delusion. I'm just afraid that's all. Thank you so much for your review though..it was really nice, it gave me hope

[Carolann Dowsett]

You are more than welcome and I fully understand your fear must be so hard for you. I'll keep you in my prayers.

[GlacialStars]

:D thank you very much

[N!LoC]

... (speechless again).... but i do have one question... r u a schizo?

[GlacialStars]

XD I don't think I am...yet