Honesty

My story - I met up with a friend of mine, her boyfriend and my ex... It was a traumatic experience. So what do I do? I write a poem about it.

Ok I haven't been totally honest with you,

But at some point I have to,

I am a psycho, that's easy to see,

It's really hard being me.

You know when we all met up together,

I was feeling under the weather,

I wasn't going to come that day, 

But my friend said I should do,

I had to,

I did.

 

I didn't want to.

I don't want to sound needy,

Or in fact attention greedy,

But I feel like an outsider,

Like the third wheel horse rider,

I'm socially awkward, I don't know how to have fun,

Like that time, what we had done,

Was alien to me, completely different,

To you, indifferent.

I'm sorry for this but I had to say,

I think I should go away,

Today is my last day being me,

I'm a blank from tomorrow, not unfamiliar to me.

But what you saw that day wasn't me.

I'm a poet, I write in poems and writing,

Of my suffering of my fighting,

I couldn't think of another way to express,

My undying distress.

Author's Note

If I'm missing punctuation, I apologise :) honest reviews please!

Reviews

[J3ssInJupit3r]

I can relate to this poem, so I very much like it. I have always had issues with social situations, like saying the wrong thing at the wrong time or not really knowing what to say. I have forced myself to kind of grow out of that since I have grown up, but it is still hard for me sometimes. I can relate to what you feel with not being able to be yourself. I wish that I could be myself, I wish that I didn't have to put on this happy go lucky mask for everyone so that everyone will like me. I wish I could just say f**k it and be myself and do me. But people don't like that, and that makes for a very lonely life. I am psycho too hon. I think we all are kind of, but some of us are more than others. I get those moments of insanity, not knowing where I am, not knowing who I am or how to make anyone happy or even myself. But every time I have managed to pull myself out of the fire, alone. Always remember that you are your own hero. Don't ever rely on anyone, they will always let you down, even if they dont mean to. Thank you for sharing. I really enjoyed reading it. And I hope things get better for you.

[TwoDaysTooLate]

Thank you so much for understanding me! Sorry I didn't notice your review until now - I've had tech issues -_- I wish I could be as strong as you are :) You are probably one of the first people to reach my underlying message! Thank you !

[Jacob Clifford]

I can absolutely relate to this. I think I've had this exact experience on a number of occasions. You did a good job of conveying feelings.

[TwoDaysTooLate]

Thank you for the positive review :)

[NightWatch]

I'm really not that good at reviewing poems, so I'm going to do my best... Here goes:
This is definitely an emotional poem about an experience you had (that much is obvious, from the description lol). From this, it seems like you felt awkward in that situation, which makes sense since you were meeting up with your friend, her boyfriend, and your ex. Any situation where you have to meet up with your ex is an emotional experience, and I think you've captured that really well.
I like the way that the poem flows, each line moving into the next, and your transitions into each stanza work really well, in my opinion.
I enjoyed this piece and I hope things work out for you! XD

[TwoDaysTooLate]

Thank you so much for the review! It was an extremely awkward situation, and I'm glad someone understands that! I actually sent this poem to them as a way of explaining how I felt, and got laughed at so was quite hesitant to publish it!