e=mc2

Where was I

before I was here?

This identity,

This personality?

This consciousness?

How did I coalesce?

Am I just a bunch of neurons?

When I cease to be confined

will the lights no longer twinkle

in the dark?

Some say non-linear

time keeps everything

right there, frozen for

eternity. Frozen with

no changes?

But, wait!

The stuff, the matter

made of energy is not

a spirit. And spirit is not

energy, which makes me

wonder… What is it that

makes you, YOU?

What have you learned

worth knowing

forever?

Is there a non-existent

rabbit hole for the

non-existent, timeless

me to explore where

there is more

to learn,

to add on,

to increase.

Is God the

conscious universe

and I a neuron?

Reviews

[Stella Armour]

God is different things to different people i guess..

Is the spirit seperate from the matter and what happens to it when the matter dies ?

So many beliefs Vol, best not to wonder what happens next , you will find the answer when the time is right for you ..

[Vol]

Stella...
Not speculate? Hmmm sounds like living in a room with no windows...
Vol

[Stella Armour]

It doesn’t worry me Vol what if anything comes next lol I am enjoying the windows of today …

[Vol]

Me too... and since I live almost alone, I have much to talk over with myself, and plenty of time to do it... smile

[Stella Armour]

me too .... have to say i enjoy my solitude these days, so much peace and time to enjoy the things i like most : music, writing , painting :)

[Ken Simm.]

You do in fact learn through the journey. Always. Never by getting to some no existant destination. There is always something more. Always. There is always somewhere else to go and as Tenesee Williams csaid, "Time is the longest distance between two place".
And it is only through us that the universe and ultimately time percieves itself. Nothing else.

[Vol]

Ken,
You know, i made tjhe drive from Nashville to Amarillo many, many times beginnin in 1999. I remember two of them... one when a rear tire blew its tread off and did $3800 damage, and the other when the pully on the AC compressor broke in the Texas heat. The important parts of any journey are the failures along the way...
Vol

[Vol]

Oh, and Journey's only happen in linear time...

[JD Major]

...random particles before birth ... random again after death ...

[Vol]

iN AN ENTANGLED UNIVERSE IS ANYTHING RANDOM?

[JD Major]

Yes, Everything ...
... a random fusing of particles, the fittest surviving = Evolution

[Arundass TP]

A beautiful self exploration poem. Great poem friend.

[andrew mitchell]

It’s funny we are made of the same elements as some comets apparently. What really gets me is humans believe in an invisible God but destroy a visible nature. A belief is only a belief that’s all it is which gained popularity when science was very limited. I like these writes Vol , thanks I like delving into the universe.

[Vol]

Andrew,
It helps that In was weaned on doctrine and philosophy fifty odd years ago, and now I'm pretty much alone with all the time I need to talk these things out with the voices.
Vol

[Pete]

i would tend to agree, "god the conscious universe". i think we're more than neurons, soul's with freewill i would say. great food for thought. maybe if we all took some time to think on such things i wouldn't have to turn on the news and hear about more shootings ... :)

[Vol]

Peter,
I know, right? I check headlines, and if nothing needs an immediate response from ME... I'm done.
Super neurons... with identity, self-awareness, personality, freewill and a unique set of whatevers to make it unique. But still a part of the whole.
Vol

[FGFRANKLIN]

A poet once wrote, "Perhaps we are just dreams in the mind of a sleeping god" and it's quite natural for any sentient being to contemplate the meaning of life. To a male lion the meaning of life is survival, to feed and breed and fight tooth and claw to maintain dominance in his pride. We aren't so far removed from the animals. We just have greater egos and vanities.

[Vol]

It is THE Existential thought... Douglas Adams traced its origins this way, "The History of every major Galactic Civilization tends to pass through three distinct and recognizable phases, those of Survival, Inquiry and Sophistication, otherwise known as the How, Why, and Where phases... the third by the question 'Where shall we have lunch?'." This last is indicative of the shallow thinking that inevitably follows once said civilization realizes there is NO ANSWER as to "WHY?" Somewhere along the line of human development, someone finally asked "WTF?"
Seriously, though, and I have no idea what, where, or who I read that said something to the effect, "If the universe is conscious, then every particle within it must always strive for consciousness.. Since I pretty much live alone, I have a lot of time to talk over such matters with the only person I can count on to listen, myself.
Vol

[FGFRANKLIN]

Well, you can chat me up anytime you can catch me here. I always enjoy a good exchange of ideas. I have Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy (The Deluxe Edition) and still haven't read it. I mean to, some day. Elon Musk says it's his favorite book. Do we, as humans, always "strive" for consciousness? It seems that a lot of people would rather be unconscious or at least partially sedated from the full brunt force of life. The stress can be overwhelming for so many. I think life and the environment containing it need not always be sentient but there are exceptions. Gnosophysiology in plants studies whether plants have the ability to learn as well as to adapt. It wouldn't be "thought" as we understand it but there is so much we don't understand. It's interesting to contemplate.

[John the Baptist]

The Hindus believe Brahman is the only reality and that each of us are projections of that reality. That's a lot to grasp, but for me it works better than the old man in the sky.

[Vol]

John,
The ignorance of Christianity in portraying God as "the old man in the sky," is responsible for more conversions to Atheism than anything else I've ever heard about. The lack of understanding the difference between allegory and reality is unforgivable. I better stop... I might go on for days.
Vol

[John the Baptist]

You sound like a recovering Baptist.

[Vol]

John,
Don't get me wrong... I am still a believer in a personal God but would have been burned at the stake by just about any denomination or church I have ever encountered. My father and both sides grandparents were Assembly of God, speaking in tongues, wild-eyed Pentecostals, and I was as steeped in doctrine like no one I know... Fortunately, They and I have IQs and were always encouraged to use them.
Ultimately, when I consider the nature and existence of what we call "God," I've come to the obvious conclusion that there are only two choices, either there is one, or there is not. Takes exactly the same kind and amount of faith to believe either way. I choose Kierkegaard's "leap of faith," because i need meaning and purpose.
So, if there is a God, and the Quantum physicists are beginning to publish about a Conscious Universe," God would be cognizant of of every particle of his being, and every particle would be part of that consciousness. But then, that would only apply to the physical universe. And here's where both sides start collecting wood for piling around the stake; I believe there is a spiritual existence separate from the physical. That is where meaning and purpose are derived. And why every consciousness is a neuron firing experience, observation, insight, trauma, joy, all of it... and all of it will be more fully assimilated when freed from our current physical confinements.
Well, dang Baptist, I do go on, don’t I.
Vol

[NormaZ]

I love poems that have some science in them! It really does make you wonder what makes you, you? I don’t think we’ll ever solve this mystery. I really enjoyed your poem!

[Vol]

NormaZ,
Thank you, and...
I know, right? and the stupid thing is, I was not writing a poem... I was just brainstorming words and phrases for an idea I was working on... whatever that was...
Vol

[Stu. T.H.]

We would never know ourselves, I believe that's what makes it so entertaining. To watch ourselves evolve and devolve everyday, recoiling away from existence and non-existence all the same, and to ask questions we know we would never get answers to, because we are cogs, organisms belong to a large one. We are miniscule, without us, humanity would still go on, even without society, the spirit would still go on. In the end, humanity -in spirit- only worships itself. And its true identity, is unknown. We are aliens, to ourselves and in this vast space of the universe, we've learned more from the outside than we do the inside, of our bodies and spirits.
Regardless, another good one, author Vol, it did tickle my funny bones. I enjoyed it a lot.
- Leon.

[Davidgeo]

Lovely review.

[Vol]

Leon,
See... That's what I'm talking about! Beautiful, expressive language about important, dare I SAY DEEP things! Nice!
Vol