Constantly Battling

Sometimes writing words helps me sort out my problems

Racing heartbeat, sweaty palms,

Corrosive thoughts creating turmoil in life,

Doubts, fears and dreams,

Reality morphing into dreamless nightmare,

 

The ability to make me smile,

Conversation flowing somewhat smooth,

Jokes and insults on tip of tongue,

The future so unknown,

 

Dangerous eye contact,

Leaving me wondering, and wanting more,

Conversation shy and stilted,

The image of always and perfection,

 

One with the confirmation,

Comfortable and an easy path,

Other with constant confusion,

A battle unknown, hearts wandering,

 

Taking me back to my past,

When you meant so much to me,

Left me clinging on to another,

Who now knows of feelings, I am uncertain,

 

Constant heartbreak in my past,

Just ask the others, of months gone by,

A battle in which I struggle to fight,

Leaving me hopeless and confused,

 

Your past dark, and still haunting,

Others hurting, then hurting you,

Me struggling to cope with own mind,

Hurting me, hurting others,

 

Destruction will come if we bond,

Leaving two broken and destroyed,

Destruction will come if we break,

Leaving one broken and hating,

 

For him I harbour hidden feelings,

Leaving me confused in what I thought I knew,

For you my feelings are wavering,

Leaving me confused in what I thought I knew,

 

Racing heartbeat, sweaty palms,

Corrosive thoughts creating turmoil in life,

Doubts, fears and dreams,

Reality morphing into dreamless nightmare.

 

Reviews

[Hebe]

Hi Willa, very expressive you get the feeling of being afaid to let go, it jumps off the page at you, but we have to take chances in life, otherwise we will remain dreamless :) thank you for sharing.....

[WillaDanvers]

Thank you very much :)

[Harley Quinn]

Wow, this is amazing. Kept me interested. Great job. Bravo.

[Anonymous]

This is a truly excellent poem, your feelings were leaping off the page!

[WillaDanvers]

Thank you so much Sami : ₩