A Life Unlived

Moving through life wishing you'd catch a breathe and enjoy a moment, quite an unrealistic dream but you keep wishing ....

Just a girl with a life she can't live because she had to grow up way too fast to take care of her family

Parents divorced when she was just four 

both remarried, everything changed

Father staying as loving and accommodating, step mother was a witch

With only two sons, second marriage collapsed after five years, father lost everything during the settlement, she stayed with relatives 

They mistreated her, she filed for emancipation

At last! father's situation was stressful though

Her first job, she bought him a house, it was a start!

Saw her two brothers through school

Mother had disappeared only to return with five more kids under her belt

Sins of the parents, loads on her shoulders

Relationships failed, family baggage

Forced to celibacy, boyfriends can be too much work!

Some privileges she can't afford, it hurts sometimes

seeing people in love, she breaks down. It's depressing but can't afford to have a moment of vulnerability

Decides on better distraction to avoid sulking

It's movies, all gory movies there is, binge watching. No love stories, or she lapses

and buries herself in work, no leave days not because she doesn't need a break but can't afford the privilege, family might starve . she needs all the money she can get.

Tries empowering family to share responsibility, they flunk

Disappointed, she lashes!

But it's family, family forever

Against all odds

Resorts to hustling by her lonesome to provide for them all

Phone rings off day after day

Father is sick

Mother is sick

Sister needs some money

Brother needs school materials

Cries herself to sleep sometime

No break!

She needs her time, she can't get it

When she does, it's shot-lived

She's lonely yet she can't say it

A bank

A charity organization 

A pillar, is what she is

She's too burdened but can't complain

Her youth is sacrificed but nobody seems to care

She didn't ask for any of it yet took responsibility

Feels like screaming yet not sure anybody would care to listen

Her needs are not as important, so they believe

She's just a girl missing some pampering 

She's just a girl wishing somebody would ask how she's doing and genuinely be interested in the reply everybody else just wouldn't care to hear

What an empty life!

Social misfit, nobody understands 

She tries so hard and wishes so much but happiness eludes her 

Solitude by default  

She's just a girl with a life unlived! 

Author's Note

Broken!

Reviews

[alanwgraham]

Wow - what a story. Can all this really happen to one person. A live unlived really describes it well. You havent said if this is true or fiction. If it's fiction you wouldn't expect anyone to believe it but anyone who could survive all these events must be very strong.
Well done for sharing.
All the best.
Alan

[sonnie ibadah]

This is so well penned. Sadly it's a story that most can relate to. Sometimes it might feel as though our lives were over even before they began. Like we were delt with a s****y hand on a game we didn't even know how to play, much less wanted to. Thanks for sharing.

[Nankya Yudaya]

Oh yes it depicts real life events and you're right, she's one strong lady
Thanks for reading my work Alan, i appreciate it