What Is Now My World Part Nine

There is so much I want to tell you Need to tell you Must somehow tell you ... What Is Now My World Part Nine The Confession Oh Alona How am I going to be able To tell you what must Now be brought in truth I am so afraid ... So afraid that I will loose you I once told you that my demons Were awaiting to be seen It is past time To reveal them to you Somehow I have to make you understand That it was never my intention To keep this from you How am I going to make you hear me Am I to say to you Alona we must have a serious talk And just somehow during the course Of conversation blurt out Alona I am married So many times I have tried to tell you This sad truth Each time I thought I had found a way I instead found myself Lost in your eyes I begged you to trust me Yet I have not been able To bring myself To tell you all of who I am What if this happiness Were to just go away What if there were no longer The sunshine and laughter That you have brought to my life It is a chance I have put off taking I am sorry I am so very sorry Am I now to see in your eyes The absence of trust and love That it has taken so long For me to see shine When you look at me Is what is ours strong enough For you to listen to all I have to tell you And in the end there still be a way For you to love me still I swear to you   Everything that has become 'We' Is all that matters to me God how I love you It will all seem so very typical I know The married man that will swear to you That there has been no love in his marriage From the very beginning Rediculous and demeaning Is the only way I can describe This lie that Patricia And I pretend to live There is no laughter There is no sharing There is not even one moment That we can be civil to each other She is only to me a phone call When her bank account is running too low Years of indifference and demands Had left me cold to this word 'Love' That you have shown me To be oh so real She convinced me She was pregnant with our baby And we married ... Way back when Christopher I learned very early on Is not my son by blood But he  IS   Every bit my son to my heart I have left things As his mother demanded to try To keep as much madness Out of his life as possible I am only the end to her means He is only the way for her To try to keep that end We have been separated now for years But she is not willing to give me a divorce Because of the money she would stand to loose To give her half of everything I own Is not a satisfactory resolution Money to her is spent like water ... And water is to her the air she breaths You know by now that I am Not someone that pushes coffee For his livlihood But you do not know the entire Truth of my career either The cafe where we met is but one of many investments That has brought me to be who I am I just stopped in there every Now and then To see how things were going How was I to know That a small neighborhood diner Was to become my greatest investment It was just another trinket To add to the Billionaire's portfolio When it was purchased Have you ever heard Of the name Anthony Sharp It is he ... I That poured your coffee That first night we met At your service My Lady Sharp Enterprises has Made me richer than you can Possibly imagine But ... It is you that has made me realize That without love All the monitary wealth in the world Has no true value If it were to mean loosing you To keep all that is mine I would have nothing without you Alona But with you I have everything I choose . . . Everything We may only have the cafe left To us when Patricia gets thru with me I swear Somehow . . . I will gain my freedom from her I would think that Sharp Enterprises signed sealed and delivered Would be a very good incentive Now to shower Get myself up off of this bed And get all of what I have rehearsed In my mind and heart out in the open We  WILL  have our 'Happily Ever After' Or will we? Across town Alona is just returning home To Be Continued . . . .

Reviews

[Arthur Henn]

Wow... what a twist, but so true that I hear this happens a lot. The hidden corners we all find love. This guy really ticked me off that he would lead Alona into a romance without telling her he was married. But then the way this chapter ended put me back into the liking of this guys character. Being tied down by the restraints of his wife, he's wanting to prove to Alona how much he cares and loves her by giving everything up for the love of their two souls to start fresh and anew as a relationship of trust and truth. I'm all for this to happen. I hope I'm right.

We shall see...Smiling

Again, Superb! writing.

Art

[Rain]

Damn,
Nothing like an emotional Atom bomb. How will Alona react to this? Humm. It's holding interest, but I am still fighting the format. My problem. Rain..