Chapter 32A Chapter by BarbA loud moan pulled
Christina from her dream. She blinked several times, wondering whether it had
come from her mother again, whose moaning woke her a few times a night, or if
the moaning issued from her own throat this time. She shivered as the dream
replayed in her mind. Surely, her dream had not been a premonition, but merely
a nightmare. Her family couldn’t be in danger. Another moan reached her
ears and she groped around in the blackness, searching for the candle and
matches. Her hand brushed against the candle, and she set about trying to light
the wick in the dark. On the third strike of the match, their darkened wagon
erupted into light and Christina turned back to face her mother who lay in
troubled slumber. As softly as she could, she lifted her mother’s hand,
stroking the aging skin. She sought to coax her mother from her unrest with
words of strength and encouragement, silently praying that some of her own
strength would transfer to the fragile body lying beside her. Her mother’s restlessness
tempted her to lean out of the wagon and call to her father or brother, but
decided it would be pointless. They couldn’t help her mother sleep any better,
and the wagon master wouldn’t be pleased if she called a halt over something as
minuscule as an apparent nightmare. She was a little surprised however, that no
one had heard her mother’s disturbed moans and come to check anyway. Even though the doctor had
sedated her earlier, she vaguely recalled wakening at least four times
throughout the night, sitting with and reassuring her mother until Carlotta
returned to a peaceful sleep. Perhaps if her own sleep had been more restful,
she too would not have heard the moans. “Is everything all right in
there, Sis? I see the candle lit,” Thomas whispered loudly through the lowered
canvas. Christina released her
mother’s hand and shuffled to the rear of the wagon. “Mom’s just having a hard
time sleeping, Thomas,” she whispered back. “Anything I can do?” Thomas
asked, seeing his sister’s head peer from the rear flap. “I don’t think so.” “Maybe I can ride over and
get another sedative for Mom to take. Maybe help her sleep a little better?” “I don’t think that will be
necessary, Thomas. It will be daylight in a few hours. Too late to take
anything now. Besides, Mom doesn’t really need any help sleeping; she’s been
doing enough sleeping to make up for all the sleepless nights of everyone in
this wagon train.” “It does seem that way,
doesn’t it?” Thomas concurred. “You think she’s going to make it all the way to
Texas?” He asked worriedly. “Of course she is,”
Christina answered with more conviction than she felt, for Thomas had voiced
her own concerns. “And when we get there, we’ll get a good doctor to look her
over and maybe hire someone to nurse her back to health.” “Sounds good,” Thomas said,
“if you can convince Father to part with the money it’ll take for that.” “It’s his wife, for
heaven’s sake! Of course he will part with the money.” Another loud moan drew
her attention. “Mom’s sleep is restless. I’m going to go back to sit with her.” “Okay, but let me know if
you need me for anything.” “I will, Thomas. Thanks.” “And Sis? How are you
feeling? Looks like you’ve gotten over whatever shocked you, although you still
look a bit bedraggled.” “Just lack of sleep,” she
said, not mentioning her encounter, or her brother’s observations over her
current appearance. She lowered the flap and returned to her mother’s side. “Want me to raise the side
flap?” Thomas asked a second later. She thought he’d already ridden away. “No,” Christina responded
in a loud whisper. “We could use the fresh air, but I don’t want the noise to
disturb Mom.” “Let me know if you change
your mind,” Thomas yelled softly, but Christina didn’t respond further. She
watched her mother’s head toss restlessly from side to side and sighed. Looking
down into her gaunt face, she wondered, yet again, what they were supposed to
do about her rapidly deteriorating health. She slept so much that she barely ate,
and even when they could rouse her long enough to eat, she merely nibbled at
the food. Unbelievably, she’d lost even more weight. The clothes that had
started hanging on her body before they left now looked like a potato sack
hanging on a scarecrow. Sitting quietly, she
watched her mother’s labored breathing and wondered just how many days she had
left in her. Would she even be strong enough to make the last two weeks of the
journey so they could get her much-needed medical attention? As the hours ticked by,
Christina continued to whisper words of strength and encouragement, and hour by
precious hour, Carlotta’s spirit faded. Even in repose, there was a sadness
surrounding her, which no amount of encouragement could ease. It was as if her
decision that this move wasn’t for her, was causing her body to shut down; as
if she were taunting the angel of death to come and claim her body. Christina
felt a shudder run through her mother’s body and tightened her grip slightly. Looking into her mother’s
disturbed features, she reflected again, on just how different she and her
mother were. Her mother was physically and mentally incapable of dealing with
the unpleasantness that life sometimes dealt, having been too sheltered. Even
giving birth had been an ordeal for her, a duty to her husband through which
she very literally suffered. She’d given her husband two strong children and
had nearly died trying to give him a third. The child died instead. She was
done. There would be no more children, but she wasn’t perturbed by the notion,
for she’d performed her wifely duty. Traveling to this barren
land was also no more than a wifely duty, one she had endured stoically, but as
with the birthing of her third child, it was killing her; however, this time
she appeared disinclined to fight death, but seemed to welcome it. As the sun
rose in the Eastern horizon, Carlotta Carthington drew her last breath nestled
in her daughter’s arms. It took a moment for Christina to realize that the rise
and fall of her mother’s chest had stopped, and she simply sat watching the
still figure. When it registered, she lifted her mother’s head and laid it on
her lap, gently stroking her hair, tears of sorrow trailing silently down her
dusty cheeks. She knew that she should
call out for her father and brother, but was temporarily unwilling to share her
grief. When she could cry no more, she lowered her mother from her embrace and
crawled stiffly to the back of the wagon. Thomas knew immediately, by the
stricken look on her face, that something was wrong. “Call a halt to the wagons,
Thomas,” Christina’s voice cracked and she had to stop a moment before
continuing. “What’s happened?” “It’s Mother. She’s passed
on.” The wagons slowed to a
halt. The doctor came by and officially pronounced that a severe case of
malnutrition had caused Carlotta Carthington’s death, but Christina knew that
she’d really died of a broken heart. So again, the trip was
delayed just long enough to bury another from their dwindling few in a simple
unmarked grave, in a strange land, far away from the home she loved. Christina
stood by the open grave. Angry tears fell unchecked down her face, one hand
tightly gripping Thomas’s, the other clinging to Maggie’s. This wouldn’t have happened
had we stayed in Georgia, her mind shouted. Her gaze lifted and locked onto Jeffrey’s.
This is your fault, her narrow, angry gaze accused, but his cold blue eyes
merely pierced hers as if to say unconcernedly, ‘I told you this could happen’. She lowered her eyes and
stared blankly at the dried, caking mud that clung to her shoes. © 2018 BarbAuthor's Note
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Added on August 19, 2018 Last Updated on August 20, 2018 Tags: Romance, Romantic Thriller, Historical Romance, Western Romance, Native American Romance AuthorBarbORAboutI'm an author of different genres: Romance, Romantic Suspense, Suspense, Crime Thriller, and Juvenile. All work can be found on my website @ www.LiteraryAdventures.net. Books listed on this site do no.. more..Writing
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