just one, right?

no idea what thiz should be catogorized under O.e

just one hope... will keep you alive.
i was told that almost every day
for about six years
same person,same time
always.
i was told that i was his hope
but then again, when gone, what is it thats left?
last time i was told that, was march 27th
i was told he died in a car crash.
that it was all just an accedent...
but it wasnt..
today i opened the letter he wrote me
i refused to open it the day it was given to me
and have kept it locked away untill now

what was written was this:
"Final words befor i rest, meet the sadness in my chest.
'never leave again' just like hands upon a ticking clock
and the ticking never ends. this is a place where no wanderer can win.
you spend all of your time away, as i wait all night and day.
i know you more than he can say. Your trying to build a new today.
i know that, but you act as if no hardships have been passed
Looking back through all the nights,
Im filled with loneliness and fright.
all i see now is that hes stealing away the one i cherish.
you could change day, your heart could rearange.
Can i still be by your side, or were we really just good friends?
'never leave again' echose so sweetly in my head
freely loosing hope, ill say farewell to this hopeless life.
look, i know ive always been there for you. and i know how hard it is
for you to accept and trust someone. but now that you have, i am no longer needed.
look day, im glad i met you. Nd glad you always trusted me with everything
sorry i can no longer talk you out of doing stupid things, like those many times you almost commited suicide. you didnt want to tell that friend of yours what was bothing you
cuz you never wanted him to worry. Haha i dont blame you, i didnt tell you what was on my mind now, did i? Look, im sorry im not going to meet him.
But i need you to smile. for me. and for everyone else. Remember, when you cry, let it all out.
cuz you know i hate it when you cut yourself day.
live. laugh. love. K? promise me that, nd everything will be okay.
tomorrow, somethings gonna happen to me. forgive me for doing this day.
sorry i wont be there for you anymore. Lools like now your gonna have to trust that friend of yours with everything you trusted me with. "
 (there was a drawing of 3 pikachus and a big smily face on the back of the page... )

befor i was given the letter, it was the last time i was told i was someones hope
honestly, i dont think i gave him hope...
i should have opened it befor

Author's Note

*sigh* i feel so stupid for not opening it befor. i should have.
anyway, idk what to write or say rite now...
I really miss him. And now I can never hear his voice of see his face again -Athena

Reviews

[Samantha Heaton]

This story reminds me of my best friend Taylor, She told me everything and anything but when me and my parents moved we kind of lost connection, She sent me a message on facebook knowing I was'nt gonna be on for a whole week so by the time i read she was gonna commit suicide it was to late. Sad story, But i like it.

[Rae]

That was so sad. T^T I really liked it though. ^^

[DontBlink158]

This story goes right to the heart. I think its a talent of yours. Sometimes you just need to get it out, even if you dont know its time.

[Maimai]

This is a good story! I can see this getting published

[Daytonight]

I think you said it all. And you said it very well. Thank you for sharing such a sad time in your life. Keep on penning.

[brenda]

regrets dont the poem was good and tragic i liked it i dont know what to say either after i read this

[Jūdan FyreHeart]

This is brilliant, your use and control of English is just fantastic. I do hope you'll look into getting this published!

[OT]

I could see this being published - you should submit it to online magazines! I wouldn't know what to put it under either - but it's good! confessionalism - so pure - like the voice of the new generation - with the text speech at times too - sad stuff - just wanna dive into the poem and spin!!!

[NoneOfYourBusiness akaK..]

what original use of language~ you took English and made it your own~ wow!!~

[compositionc]

Such a sad story. It must have been painful to share.

[ImagineItAll]

This is very sad, and I'm sure that it was hurtful to share. So thank you for including us.